Sprinkle, I was going to write some sort of message about your new nick name, but I couldn't really find any goods words to hopefully post your old nick name up, and not kill yourself, but I'm not good with that. Partly because I've felt that way so many times before, and I've never be good with emotions. So all I'll say is, this is the worst advice anyone could ever give but,
If you have exhausted all other options, therapy, fighting back, running, ignoring, pills, or anything else. If you must do it, scream into the wind, cry your broken heart out, and let it all be over.
~Someone too emotional for it being Christmas Eve