hello my precious people, I almost died before Christmas but here I am. not only that, I was incredibly happy for the first time in forever in November, I let my boyfriend be the source of my happiness. I am now crushed, heartbroken basically. im back to being miserable :)) maybe this is me being bitter, but don't let anyone or anything be the reason you're happy, it could be taken away from you at any moment. it hurts like hell when that happens. love you all, I'll write something soon. xx michelle