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am I ever regretting like ? like ever ? nah not really wllahi friendship loose wasn't in my bingo card for this year but I guess its just part of life of fate as humans we should get along with it 
          
          thankful for all the bastards that they walkout the moment I made a single mistake they choose not to work it out  who stayed ? I guess my overthinking the restless the sleepless nights ...was it worth it ? all this acting like a physco and stalking like a weird EX ...no its not 
          
          part of me knows it wasn't about them ... its was never I was drowning in myself how could they move on like that ? is it easy? or is it me just overreacting ?   do these years ever meant a thing to them ? or maybe from the beginning nothing was real I think something aint different from my  12y/o me  and m 17 self I'm still naive as ever

dunno what dragged to get myself being here again but its just bringing me some kind of nostalgia I never thought I would seek to check it ever again 
          been four years !! still hard for e to believe that this place was part of my everyday life  and what makes me the person cam today 
          
          been hogging all over with friends until i came into here agian after losing everyone being alone just made e realize I should be thankful to all this lonlies and peace I had during these past months how could just a toddler that kept  building to long last forever builshit to understand  the moment I drop a one mistake cost me a lifetime I guess ?
          
          ya3ni I thought its just chapter in my life I just twisted to forgot it like it didn't even exstied anymore but should have known better who am I lying to truth? facts? or just my stupid me couldn't understand its like a shameful that stinger into me no matter how hard try to let it off me .. its always there waiting on like it knows I'm going back no matter how long it takes 
          
          honestly dunno how my arabic managed to be out of some kind of a legit and now I bearly managed few words without slipping back to English ? well I guess that's the only thing I'm great full managed to forget it somehow 
          
          18\Apr\2026