sqzwer5

TBH I lied when I said I held no offence, I did how do expect me not to when you just been the center of my thoughts let alone I get to see you all around flashy the center of talking in squad like life never been good as if its now 
          	
          	
          	I kept thinking non stop about that single text you felt you said? bad for what of us? ending out friendship? umm sorry your the one who did that under what its called overwhelmed? or whatever bullishit you were pulling up on me ....but I got I conclude everything that you did this so you won't feel bad bout your self well yeah keep feeling cz no escape from this feeling for the rest of you life a non asked apology that came too late out of sudden I dunno what were you expecting tears and hugs? ( you hated all physical ).. we both guess know my lie but choose silence over explanation
          	
          	
          	I heard every whisper, rumour and new story everyone been pulling out bout me the one you kept laughing about when you thought I was dozed in my seat while clearly I didn't ..they get to hear your fake side of the story the one where you centerlized yourself as your the viticim when clearly you weren't .

sqzwer5

TBH I lied when I said I held no offence, I did how do expect me not to when you just been the center of my thoughts let alone I get to see you all around flashy the center of talking in squad like life never been good as if its now 
          
          
          I kept thinking non stop about that single text you felt you said? bad for what of us? ending out friendship? umm sorry your the one who did that under what its called overwhelmed? or whatever bullishit you were pulling up on me ....but I got I conclude everything that you did this so you won't feel bad bout your self well yeah keep feeling cz no escape from this feeling for the rest of you life a non asked apology that came too late out of sudden I dunno what were you expecting tears and hugs? ( you hated all physical ).. we both guess know my lie but choose silence over explanation
          
          
          I heard every whisper, rumour and new story everyone been pulling out bout me the one you kept laughing about when you thought I was dozed in my seat while clearly I didn't ..they get to hear your fake side of the story the one where you centerlized yourself as your the viticim when clearly you weren't .

sqzwer5

am I ever regretting like ? like ever ? nah not really wllahi friendship loose wasn't in my bingo card for this year but I guess its just part of life of fate as humans we should get along with it 
          
          thankful for all the bastards that they walkout the moment I made a single mistake they choose not to work it out  who stayed ? I guess my overthinking the restless the sleepless nights ...was it worth it ? all this acting like a physco and stalking like a weird EX ...no its not 
          
          part of me knows it wasn't about them ... its was never I was drowning in myself how could they move on like that ? is it easy? or is it me just overreacting ?   do these years ever meant a thing to them ? or maybe from the beginning nothing was real I think something aint different from my  12y/o me  and m 17 self I'm still naive as ever

Hoshi-06a

Thank you a lot, I hope that for you too!! -hug-
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sqzwer5

@Hoshi-06a  I wish you inshallah mental peace where you out of this worry and this endless circle of worrying non stop and find your sense of belonging in people loveable for you
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Hoshi-06a

I hate when I overthink a lot, comes to a point that I start crying and getting angry. It was indeed but I can't escape not mentioning how terrible it was. 
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sqzwer5

dunno what dragged to get myself being here again but its just bringing me some kind of nostalgia I never thought I would seek to check it ever again 
          been four years !! still hard for e to believe that this place was part of my everyday life  and what makes me the person cam today 
          
          been hogging all over with friends until i came into here agian after losing everyone being alone just made e realize I should be thankful to all this lonlies and peace I had during these past months how could just a toddler that kept  building to long last forever builshit to understand  the moment I drop a one mistake cost me a lifetime I guess ?
          
          ya3ni I thought its just chapter in my life I just twisted to forgot it like it didn't even exstied anymore but should have known better who am I lying to truth? facts? or just my stupid me couldn't understand its like a shameful that stinger into me no matter how hard try to let it off me .. its always there waiting on like it knows I'm going back no matter how long it takes 
          
          honestly dunno how my arabic managed to be out of some kind of a legit and now I bearly managed few words without slipping back to English ? well I guess that's the only thing I'm great full managed to forget it somehow 
          
          18\Apr\2026