╰► marshall 🐾

LOVELY HIT 300K WTF THANK YALL SMMM ???  it’s crazy i still get new readers for my teenage writing ???? 
          
          sorry for the strong ass hiatus but i just am not motivated for any published works still [sobs] i promise my fics AREN’T ABANDONED!!!! i just haven’t been focused on them in a long ass time [sobs] HOPEFULLY I WILL FINALLY PUBLISH SOMETIME THIS YEAR??? i will be updating lovely & wonderlands layout/theme first to match lowlife & normal tho, so whenever i do that i will let y’all know before i start posting again!!!! i will probably do a schedule so it’s easier on me to remember but pray that this year is the year i get back into writing for my published ocs :,)

i’m writing a fucking rewrite for this fuckass show :) that won’t leave my docs actually bc the self indulgent bs will be for ME and i need to get my anger out in a productive way :) 
          
          crashing out so bad right now honestly
          
          what the fuck happened?? s5 vol 1 felt like STRANGER THINGS. WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED WITH THE NEXT TWO??
          
          this is just vile. 
          
          DISGUSTING. 
          
          queer people can never fucking win, ig... 

“show for outcasts” my FUCKING ASS 
          
          THE DUFFER BROTHER CAN SUCK MY FAT ONE ACTUALLY 

st5 vol 3 spoilers
          
          i am not happy at all 
          
          they fucking did it to me AGAIN 
          
          i said i wasn’t going to get my hopes up AGAIN and they fucking ????? 
          
          THE DUFFERS R DONE I RESENT THIS SHIT WTF
          
          they queerbaited me y’all 
          
          i’m done lol 
          
          i am UPSET haha… and IK it’s stupid but i’ve been watching this show since 2017, since i was a young little queer kid, and they wrote a gay MAIN character for the express purpose of traumatizing him??? basically??? wtf??? i saw a tumblr post that worded my thoughts on this type of ending in the case of will byers & mike wheeler better than i can rn but i just can’t think rn… 
          
          i’m just… upset… not surprised but disappointed in myself?? and the duffers?? maybe?? idk y’all i’m tried, not vibing, and just… over this bullshit happening over and over again. 
          
          to paraphrase an ao3 writer on this subject; it feels like a piece of you dies whenever this happens to queer characters in media, it feels like a part of you dies on the screen. it hurts. it’s awful. it sucks. 
          
          i just thought, maybe, MAYBE, the suffer brothers would give will byers his happy ending in a way that REALLY would have mattered than what we got :/ in my opinion at least. 
          
          i don’t even know dude… i’m just so fucking upset right now, i’ll get over it but like… this fucking sucks rn. 2026 is off to a great start for me [sobs] happy fucking new year ig lol
          

ST5 EP4 SPOILERS!!!!!!!
          
          
          
          
          
          the way will killed those demos in a mockery of how henry kills his victims was MWAH MWAH CHEFS KISS MY BEST BOY YES HELLO???? I LOVE LOVE LOVEDDDDD IT SM OMG???? 
          
          side note: steve harrington crashing his beamer into The Wall bc he & dustin were fighting WAS SO FUCKING HILARIOUS LOWK??? like my shayla’s?? my angsty brothers??? why do this to me :,)  

slight stranger things 5 spoilers? ish?
          
          THEYRE TRYNA DO STANCY BS & SOME WEIRD STONATHAN FIGHT FOR NANCE/JEALOUSY THING AND I WANNA FIGHT SOMEONE 
          
          stancy is not endgame bro what r they doing??? why r they fighting over her??? LET STANCY DIE HOLY FUCK IT ENDED IN S1 BASICALLY IDC ???  
          
          also dustin my shayla [SOBS] 
          
          the only way i’ll take stancy is if it’s steve/nancy/jonathan polycule !!!! no other way!!! and i don’t think stranger things is down like that!!!  

for anyone who reads these, whenever i do get around to starting to publish again, getting motivation to write for my fics & back in the flow of updating for full length books and whatever,,,, would anyone who reads them care if i’d change up how they’re formatted??? like the way i write?? bc my writing style has changed A LOT in the last 3-4 (??) years i’ve been on hiatus !!! in my humble opinion i think it’s much better than what i was writing at 12-14 years old lmao!!! also, would anyone care if i end up focusing on each episode as a whole and it gets more wordy? like description heavy bc i write more description heavy now [sobs] like longer chapters?? (that would take longer to write oops??) or would y’all still like the 2-4k worded chapters that break up the episodes i’m working on?? the only fic that prob wouldn’t do that is low life bc of how short the mystreet episodes are ?? but IDK PLS LMK IF ANYONE READS MY MB [sobs] I WANNA CATER TO Y’ALL!! NEW & OLD READERS!!! 
          
          ps: the publishing hiatus ending probably won’t be for a while bc it’s been so long since i’ve focused on updating for my actual books on here, it’s weird getting back into the flow of publishing chapters when i focus more so now on self-indulgent bs for myself that wouldn’t be published cuz it’s just for ME and there’s no like,,,, incentive that i crank shit out for an audience so it’s not as prevalent to get my chapters/scenes done in a manner that publishing is needed!! if that makes sense?? i’d probably try and schedule my fics so it’s easier for me to get stuff out (which i’ve never done before :3) but pls lmk what y’all think?? and would you guys mind slow updates compared to no updates? 

lovely #1 in felicity smoak???? WEIRD TAG TO BE #1 IN BUT HELL YEAH I FW IT 

WHAT IS GOIN ON IN MY COMMENTS WHY ARE PEOPLE FIGHTING OMG 

wooo it’s my birthday :33