eep

why is everyone around mendating someone theyve only known for like 3 months in scared

imagine being so insecure you make fun everyone.

my sister try not to make fun of me challenge go! (impossible)

i dont like the slight waves in my hair, especially the waves on the ends of my front pieces (i like it straight), so i was trying to get rid of them. i literally just started cutting my hair (not even paying attention to what i was doing,) and thats how it turned out. im not tryna asian fish wtf.

FML they stopped trying

you got lucky you just happened to suddenly appear in their life when they were lonely.

tweaking out because of his boyfriend :laughwithtears: 
          
          i had another panic attack while showering because of them. i hate them so much. i want him to be happy though so idm

chat my crush is denden sigh 
          
          he has a bf and i hate myself for liking him. i liked gim b4 they were dating but i feel sonbad :laughwithtears: i also barely even knew him when i developed the crush. i wanted to get closer to him and i think i currently am but hopefully it continues and he cares about me atleast a little more. i had a panic attack like three days ago bc of him but he was the one who calmed me down. i was crying so much and i could barely breathe. ive never cried that much over someone it was so weird. i think ive Never really cried over anyone really. ihate how i get so sad at the mere thought of him and when he messages me it makes my stomach drop. my notifications for messages on insta are off for everyone except him so i know when he texts me. its pathetic and i feel so bad. he has a fucking boyfriend so why cant i stop liking him? depending on how much and what we talk about determines my mood for the day. 
          
          i KNOW he only messages me because he feels bad. he probably went through this before. someone he loved not caring enough or not returning affection. im 99.9% sure he feels this way. i get so jealous of his friends. for example, abby. shes been his friend since january (which is about the same amount of time as me and him have been friends) and her shes close to him. she followed me and i followed her back but then i removed her as a follower and unfollowed her because i got too jealous. i get so jealous over the smallest things. i hate it so much. why am i like this? this is kinda off topic (i think) but ive noticed how much meaner abby has become after being dendens friend. she used to be nice and respectful towards peoples comments and stuff on her tt videos but now shes meaner. she also dmed me on tt after a while AFTER becoming dendens friend and it was much different from how she used to speak (we used to message each other occasionally). this is probably such a non issue but it makes me sad to think about. he honestly has changed me 2

help me I dont wanna feel like this anymore :laughingemoji:

sigh