Ahhhhhh I’m so nervous... tomorrow I have practical exams for acceptance to this school I’m trying to get in and I’m so nervous because I haven’t chosen any other school if I fail and it’s really important for my future because I need to have a maturita (high school graduation degree) so as to have more chances to be given a well paid job.
The problem is that technically I should have graduated in 2020 but I had to repeat a year because I failed some of my subjects and then the same thing happened again a year later and now I’m just switching fields, I have to get a degree or I won’t get a good job, I can’t have just elementary education...
Basically I couldn’t choose an “easy” school in a field I’ll end up not doing because I’m afraid I wouldn’t be bothered to study for that so I have kinda.. one shot. I can’t fail otherwise I’ll be 19, without a degree, and would have to start working because taxes. It’s bad as it is now that I’d be 19 in the same class as 15-year-olds who made it the first time. I think I’m fucced T^T
also the day after I’m taking a test for literature and the history of art and I didn’t study because I can’t find my books from previous years (at high school I mean, the books at elementary/middle school are school property and you return them at the end of each year)
Did I already say that I’m anxious?