𝓕𝓪𝓲𝓽𝓱

Hey , I wrote a song. I don't know if it's good or not. Please share your opinions...... 
          
          
          (Intro)
          
          I'm your masterpiece. (Uh,uh,uh)
          And you're the painter, love (love)
          I'm pretty but you're even prettier, baby (baby)
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          Mi amor,
          You're perfect (Perfect, perfect)
          I need you (yes, I do)
          Your smile makes me wanna smile too (I just love it)
          Your smile brightens up my day (yes, it does)
          You're my pretty boy (pretty boy)
          I'm yours (yours only) and you're mine (mine only)
          I feel like I'm in heaven (heaven) when I'm with you, my pretty boy (my lovely boy)
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          (Chorus)
          
          I just want you to be with me forever (never go away from me)
          No, don't go (don't go, baby)
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          I just want you to be with me forever (never go away from me)
          No, don't go (don't go, baby)
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          Mhmm
          Love, you're so damn perfect, even the moon will be jealous of you.
          You're driving me so crazy (crazy)
          Oh, you're perfect (perfect)
          So charming and addictive (addictive)
          You're my addiction, baby (baby)
          I wanna stay up all night, pleasing you (yes, pleasing you, only you)
          I just can't stop thinking 'bout you
          (I can't, I can't)
          I can't stay without you (No, I can't)
          Baby, I like the way you hold me so tightly (I ain't going away)
          I'm sticking with you untill we die (we gonna die together)
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          (Chorus)
          
          I just want you to be with me forever (never go away from me)
          No, don't go (don't go, baby)
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          I just want you to be with me forever (never go away from me)
          No, don't go (don't go, baby)
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          I'm obsessed (with you, only you)
          Yes, you heard that right, baby 
          (Yes, you did)
          My love will haunt you after I die (baby)
          I'm so damn crazy (for you, my love)
          You're my obsession (ah, ah, a-ah)
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          (Outro)
          
          I'm your masterpiece. (Uh,uh,uh)
          And you're the painter, love (love)
          I'm pretty but you're even prettier, baby (baby)

Today, I saw the most nicest dream ever, in the dream I slapped a pervert and soyeon was there, clapping her hands in happiness and "NXDE" was playing in the background. 

I just kill a mosquito 

Today is my dad's birthday and I got blueberry cake....I originally ordered two cakes which was blueberry and mocha cake but the cake shop gave two blueberry cakes. Later on, dad cut both the cakes and ate it. 

Minnie's new album [HER] is so slay.
          "Cherry Sky" is so good, "It's Okay" is good too, "Her" is so cool, "Drive U Crazy" is really driving me crazy, "Obsession" is so nice, "Blind Eyes Red" is so hot. I'm in love with this song, and "Valentine's Dream" is making me wanna just go and hug Minnie for making this song.
          

Pornstar by Nessa Barrett is so damn hot for some reason. It makes me feel so..... I don't how to explain it..... It makes me wanna make out with someone (but I'm inexperienced)

Is it wrong to like older guys?.. I'm talking about guys in between 22-29.... My parents want me to marry a guy who's a few years older to me but I wanna marry a guy who is 9 years older to me..... Is that really okay? I....I'm just weird for liking older guys....I guess.... 

News flash, I cried last night over a very stupid reason and that was about being single as fuck, about being touch starved. I feel pathetic crying over a simple thing like that. I just feel disgusted with myself. My parents say to stay away from boys because they think boys are trouble but how can I? When I  wanna be loved, touched, cared for. I'm actually scared of falling in love with anyone because I feel like my parents are gonna disown me. My cousin sister is 15 and she's got herself a good guy while I'm 17, will be 18 this year am single. I haven't caught hands with any guy, never had my first kiss, never gone on a date, never watched a movie with anyone, never done anything besides going to school and back home. Now I'm gonna be giving my o'levels (ordinary level) or as my parents say, "higher studies). I'm tired of my life. I wanna die but I'm scared to do it. I know I sound really pathetic but I can't, I just can't anymore. I just need someone who'll love ME, care for ME, cherish ME and most of all, just listen to ME. I just don't feel like myself anymore. I feel empty, really empty, I feel really lonely and to top it off, I don't even have any friends in real life. My life is just a mess. Another few years and my teenage years will end, I haven't even done things that a normal teenager should be doing, I'm a fucking MESS. My parents keep telling me to pray to God. I tried but I don't think God even exists because if he did, he would listen to ME. I just know I'm probably being dramatic, I know others probably have it harder than me but I swear I'm not being ungrateful, I'm really grateful for the things I have but I just wanna live my life like a normal teenager, is that too much to ask for? Fuck my life!! 

Okay, so like I've been seeing ads of this Rednote app thingy.... And I downloaded it and tried to sign in but couldn't. To top it all of, the whole thing was in Chinese and I know little bit of it so most of the words I couldn't understand. Ughhhhh, I have to go back to Duolingo to learn the rest of the Chinese lessons. 

Deer hunter by &team is so damn addictive. I'm obsessed with that song. Whenever that song comes on, my body starts moving on its own. I just started dancing like there's no tomorrow. I'm in love with that song (I don't know if that's even possible.)