starfishhastentacles

Im bad at everything and i mess up things every single time
          	Im not good at games --> even if i try to improve , i dont put 100% into improving
          	Not good with languages---> i suck and cant even read a single word properly for tomorrow's exam
          	Not good at making friends 
          	Not good at drawing (coz i stopped)
          	Not good at talking and awkward all the time
          	Messed up hair (i will-just go bald .. i cant handle looking at my hair fall .. my room is covered with my hairs , i feel like a dog going though its shedding season)  and health is always at it lowest point (i just cant believe i didnt got covid but i stayed home 99.9% soo)
          	Not good at handwriting
          	Not good at .... i should just stop this and focus on reading and turn off emotions until the exams end

starfishhastentacles

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@starfishhastentacles shut the heck up . I got top rank in pubg(its been a long time since i played so i forgotten the name) . Maintained 5 accounts in Clash of Clans of level 9 townhall like did Multitasking plus played whole and night for it . My dragon city game bruh that was a fire like i maintained so much in it (the game rn is shit) . Got highest rank in subway surface and in temple run . Unlocked all cars and bikes in racing games . Learned how to fix and how to make things on diff topics . Got first prize in drawing complete in school and placed 3rd in the calcus abacus (something) competition . Played basketball and learned few tricks within days . Hair is good now better than last time but still hairfall coz of no vitamins and im not taking meds coz they make my brain go numb/fog . Good at drawing and have still too much to learn . Im introvert so gotta work on that . My handwriting is doctor handwriting and maybe i will change it . Im not good with languages coz i move on to next language as soon as something excite me so i should focus on 1 at a time . Good and bad at games but its just i dont find enough time to improve on anything & i tilt sometimes in games soo it also plays a role .
          	  I should be patient and calm . Get better . Its time to buckle up and do something i want and love .. gotta study for exam now only 6 or so hrs to go
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starfishhastentacles

Im bad at everything and i mess up things every single time
          Im not good at games --> even if i try to improve , i dont put 100% into improving
          Not good with languages---> i suck and cant even read a single word properly for tomorrow's exam
          Not good at making friends 
          Not good at drawing (coz i stopped)
          Not good at talking and awkward all the time
          Messed up hair (i will-just go bald .. i cant handle looking at my hair fall .. my room is covered with my hairs , i feel like a dog going though its shedding season)  and health is always at it lowest point (i just cant believe i didnt got covid but i stayed home 99.9% soo)
          Not good at handwriting
          Not good at .... i should just stop this and focus on reading and turn off emotions until the exams end

starfishhastentacles

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@starfishhastentacles shut the heck up . I got top rank in pubg(its been a long time since i played so i forgotten the name) . Maintained 5 accounts in Clash of Clans of level 9 townhall like did Multitasking plus played whole and night for it . My dragon city game bruh that was a fire like i maintained so much in it (the game rn is shit) . Got highest rank in subway surface and in temple run . Unlocked all cars and bikes in racing games . Learned how to fix and how to make things on diff topics . Got first prize in drawing complete in school and placed 3rd in the calcus abacus (something) competition . Played basketball and learned few tricks within days . Hair is good now better than last time but still hairfall coz of no vitamins and im not taking meds coz they make my brain go numb/fog . Good at drawing and have still too much to learn . Im introvert so gotta work on that . My handwriting is doctor handwriting and maybe i will change it . Im not good with languages coz i move on to next language as soon as something excite me so i should focus on 1 at a time . Good and bad at games but its just i dont find enough time to improve on anything & i tilt sometimes in games soo it also plays a role .
            I should be patient and calm . Get better . Its time to buckle up and do something i want and love .. gotta study for exam now only 6 or so hrs to go
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More few hrs for the exam (day 1 of finals) . I just wanna write it now so that i can sleep .. its 5:16 am and i did all nightout today also yesterday bruh i should had just sleep in ... my left elbow is paining due to weight and pressure while playing games (all night --> gonna yeet the laptop considering i dont have work in it and it will stop me from playing games and my lazy ass wont even bother to take out laptop) plus this is very critical thing like passing the exams and also studying for my entrance exam test which will qualify my grades and stuff so i can join in good clg with cut out (something like that)
          Well i didnt played even when laptop was out in open .. its a coping ig and procrastinating and stress

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@starfishhastentacles i messed this exam soo . Didnt studied few objective coz im sure im good at it and written 1 bit wrong .. only wrote 2 sides of a page for LAQ coz i forgotten , sleep deprived and i had red eyes in morning due to no sleep and my mom scoled me for it .. now idk ig i might pass but fk it . I messed up big time and even now messing up my tomorrow's exam. I should just go for all nightout ig .. gonna sleep now .. i will handle other things later
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I had a strong coffee yesterday and today . It isnt the one i usually have everyday  ..  gosh i cant sleep like really . I have finals starting from 19th and this is making me so sad and angry ... my sleep is gonna be messed up for next few days (even tho im gonna pull a all-nighter for exams) . Tbh i should stop drinking coffee :( .. i mean coffee wont save me (focus and being awake) as im getting used to it plus drinking it almost every single day for past few months .. well then from today im gonna stop drinking it and have it once in a while or during exams preparations since i love how it tastes :)

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My mom was away for 2½ days ... today the street dog(tommy) jumped on her lmaoo .. i think tommy missed her but my parents think that he wanna eat a sweet which was in her hands.
          I got a pratical final exam in few hours (starting from today and end on 13)  haven't prepared anything coz of my lazy and there's wasnt a clear indication on what to study and mam told us around night time last night .. so i will start studying now and try my best to prepare for exam hehehe

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MY SEM 5 FINALSSS ARE FROM NOVEMBER 19!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
          I BUYED 2 MATERIAL (BOOKS) BUT FUCKING HECK THE INFO IN IT IS PIECE OF SHIT TBH. I KINDA REGRET BUYING THEM BUT STILL HEYY ATLEAST I GOT TO KNOW HOW MUCH AND WHAT HEADINGS ARE NEEDED IN EXAM (not teally , just my coping mechanism :( ) bruh idk how i will pass this sem 5 fucking hell

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Its 3 am rn . Completed only the record and couldn't even start writing the assignment :( .. today was home cleaning day (due to festival) I woken up around 9 ish in morning and the head was aching a lil . the sound of vaccum in hall and my bro left my room door open so the light and sounds made my headache more baddier ... ik i should had taken a headache pain killer and a lil nap but i couldnt think properly so i slept :/ woken up around 2-3pm then had lunch .. the cleaning was still going on and my head was still throbing (still not yet taken pain killer) so i just used my phone and watched yt and a episode , to avoid sleeping because i was damn sleepy and rn im in sense and good , afterall i think my body just goes to normal in night time .... bruh i still think again and again why i didnt taken the damn pain killer!! My mind and body just wanna check my how much far i go handling the pain without taking pain killer , this is normal during periods coz i didnt IF i should take them or just see how much i can handle (worst take ever , just take the damn pill gurl)

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Slept for a while (idk) had dinner and buttermilk . Did some 40 or 41 squats , some dumbbells exercises (from jk bts workout live) , 50 bicep curl with 2.5 kgs dumbbells... did random leg shakes , arm shakes , swing rotations idk what to call that , wall pushup and arm warm up (kinda) thingy Im 100% sure i just made up my own warmups coz my body is tired asf and couldn't even follow along jk's live workout of dumbbells exercises .. well i only do 2-3 days of workout in a week so today was worth doing (this was 2nd workout of this week and its gonna be Sunday in few mins) idk if i should do it tomorrow or not .. considering my muscles need recovery time (24 or 48 hrs) i might just take rest tomorrow and rn my body is kinda burning but i feel happy .. my headache isnt there (sleeping helped ig) well i gotta sleep (crazy) now since its midnight and i gotta complete writing my record and assignments (submission on monday) .. starting from early morning is best than doing a all-nighter to complete them (i got a free day so it is a disadvantage thing to even think of doing all-nighter)

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I got headache yesterday .. rn my head isnt ache-ing that much (like yesterday) but still im in pain .. im remembering some stories from wattpad (long time or months ago) but cant remember the name of book nor the summary... my head is a mess rn and also i gotta submit record and assignment on monday.....my PMS started and my breast hurts (oh my poor breasts) so much ahhhh cant even sleep nor sit up properly GOSH WHYYY T-T ... sleeping makes my head throb more..
          My periods are still far away like idk maybe week or more .. everyday i just wanna rip my uterus out like why am i suffering this much when freaking periods are not even anywhere fucking near!!