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I finally sit down to write my long-anticipated og plotline for Cold Hearted aaand I feel like the whole premise and all the words I'm typing are corny and crappy and forced. Like. I hate to scrap it but maybe I should. Idk. Bleh.
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YOU GUYS
Zobby Halloween costume:
Lilith and Lucifer, fallen angel power couple
Yes? No? (Say yes)
AbbyWatson4
@starglaee You’re welcome. :) Still working out an AU idea where Cobra Kai and Miyagi-Do find themselves having to deal with a vampire karate dojo, as well as their discovering the vampire karate dojo’s sensei is a vampire, although she looks like she’s old enough to be in high school, too. :)
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NEW COLD HEARTED! It's the chapter where SamTory hugs yayyy https://www.wattpad.com/1504484879-cold-hearted-⭒-cobra-kai-6-3-0
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I need help! Who wins in a fight: Zion or Miguel?
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Update tonight?!
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Um. I just wrote 4000 words in one sitting. Um. So that's how I'm doing mentally <3 And if you are concerned, don't worry. I'm sure I'm fine. It's only 4am right now... No biggie...
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If Zion were written by a musician, who would she be written by?
This is my random question of the night as I try not to lose my mind</3
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@simplysherlyn okay okay that’s fair. Idk I think each season may be a good way to split it up?
simplysherlyn
@starglaee depends… which Seasons are we talking about cause they all fit certain ones
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@simplysherlyn oooh these are good ones! Paramore songs have inspired many chapters - and Taylor Swift has, too! And Adele and Taylor are all over my Zobby playlist. Curious: what era(s) would you say Zion is most? I wonder if we think the same
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So I don’t know who to vent to so here’s the abyss of strangers of the internet, I guess
Hospice has said my grandma likely won’t last another week. She will probably die just before, on, or right after her birthday. She has a chronic illness that only gets worse and worse so it’s been something we’ve been prepared for for years
Still, I feel selfish through it all. It’s the first death I’m experiencing of someone who I am very close to so. It’s hard
This is where the selfish venting comes in
So my dad broke down on me tonight and keeps pressing me to say something. I don’t know how to deal with this. And he never cries so it made me uncomfortable and tear up, too
At the end of 2024, my parents should be officially divorced. So he’s going through it because his mom is like his best friend. And his sisters can’t agree on anything so it makes handling things harder. And he’s been on medical leave for months now with his own medical problems back to back
And all I can think about is how there’s never a good time to die. I’m thankful I’m not having to process this while I’m in school, but. This is all happening over my break when I’ll be going on vacations with my mom, separate from my dad and potentially the chance to grieve. I’d be going to see my mom’s mom. And I don’t want to grieve while on a trip with them
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@coleisgaylol thank you for all of this. I had a goodbye with her but she was deep asleep with meds so she didn’t really hear it. She’s just not in her right mind. I’m hoping my dad will be all right; I’m worried about him bc he’s alone most of the time. This is really helpful tho thank you. You’re so kind <3
coleisgaylol
First I’d like to say I’m sorry about your grandma. My grandma died a few years back, it didn’t hit me that hard as I had only met her once. But the effect it took on my mother was traumatizing to say the least. The only advice that I have is that you say everything you want to say to her before she’s gone. That’s something my mom didn’t get to do. As for ur dad just try to show him support and love, while also acknowledging ur own pain. Don’t be afraid to be sad it’s totally normal. Just a suggestion though you don’t have to do anything I said . Sending love ❤️
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Also my birthday is in early January, too. So there’s that. And I go back to school and start extra curriculars and start an internship all in the next 2/3 weeks
I don’t know how to process things my way, be a shoulder for my dad to cry on, organize my schedule to spread her ashes, explain to my mom that I may not be in the headspace for this vacation planned months in advance, process the divorce really becoming final, and losing my grandma all at once while prepping to return to the land of productivity. I just. I feel so conflicted and selfish and I guess there’s no wrong way to grieve and this is fine maybe but. I can’t help feeling guilty
PaulSyrelLajarcaBROP
https://www.wattpad.com/1505460245?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=share_published&wp_page=create_on_publish&wp_uname=PaulSyrelLajarcaBROP Chapter 49 - Ouroboros The biggest chapter I ever made! ♥♥♥♥
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Merry Christmas if you celebrate!
