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for once, I dont want to be anyone but theodore finch, the boy she sees. he understands what it is to be elegant and euphoric and a hundred different people, most of them flawed and stupid, part asshole, part screwup, part freak, a boy who wants to be easy for the folks around him so that he doesnt worry them and, most of all, easy for himself. a boy who belongs - here in the world, here in his own skin. he is exactly who i want to be and what i want my epitaph to say: the boy violet markey loves.