starlordesses

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if anyone is still interested. i probs won't write anymore. i legit lost the motivation to do anything except lay in my bed and curse myself for not starting on anything. my parents think i'm gonna kill myself. which isn't gonna happen cuz m too much of a pussy. but like if there was a car driving towards me with full speed i wouldn't jump out of the way. for legal reasons that's a joke. (to clarify I have no plans of killing myself in the near future simply cuz I can't do that to my fam.)
          	
          	but that's too much real shit for this post. eh if anyone cares m not as obsessed anymore with my weight. as long as i don't check the calories on food items i'm alright. 
          	
          	y'all probs don't even care as much that we stopped writing since we don't have long stories that cut off in the middle. just all short stories. eh so i guess yall can unfollow and have a fun day. 
          	
          	this will almost 100 percent be the last activity you see here on this account. it has been a lot of fun. and i was really happy reading all of ur comments when we were still publishing 'running', but those times are over. 
          	
          	i wish yall the best of luck and hope you'll achieve all of ur dreams. when ur famous don't forgot about the shitty fan fiction u once read!
          	
          	merel

GirlinTheMoon_56

@starlordesses you are really great at writing :< wish you get some inspiration again and continue writing specifically the queen's "princess" wish you have a good day and if I could give some of my energy and positivity I would have give you half of mine to help you and to motivate you.
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starlordesses

this message may be offensive 
if anyone is still interested. i probs won't write anymore. i legit lost the motivation to do anything except lay in my bed and curse myself for not starting on anything. my parents think i'm gonna kill myself. which isn't gonna happen cuz m too much of a pussy. but like if there was a car driving towards me with full speed i wouldn't jump out of the way. for legal reasons that's a joke. (to clarify I have no plans of killing myself in the near future simply cuz I can't do that to my fam.)
          
          but that's too much real shit for this post. eh if anyone cares m not as obsessed anymore with my weight. as long as i don't check the calories on food items i'm alright. 
          
          y'all probs don't even care as much that we stopped writing since we don't have long stories that cut off in the middle. just all short stories. eh so i guess yall can unfollow and have a fun day. 
          
          this will almost 100 percent be the last activity you see here on this account. it has been a lot of fun. and i was really happy reading all of ur comments when we were still publishing 'running', but those times are over. 
          
          i wish yall the best of luck and hope you'll achieve all of ur dreams. when ur famous don't forgot about the shitty fan fiction u once read!
          
          merel

GirlinTheMoon_56

@starlordesses you are really great at writing :< wish you get some inspiration again and continue writing specifically the queen's "princess" wish you have a good day and if I could give some of my energy and positivity I would have give you half of mine to help you and to motivate you.
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starlordesses

guess who's back from the dead??? it's meeee, your quasi favourite writer :o. i know i completely used that word out of context, but it suddenly appeared in my head and i can't skip out on some amazing words that i remember. 
          
          today absolutely sucked -- well no more than the others -- i once again realised how obsessed i am with my weight and not per se in a bad way, but also not in a good way if you understand me. don't pity me tho; it will have zero negative impact on my physical state. 
          
          the second thing that happened was that i did nothing. like really nothing. and its bothering me so much. i have to hand in a essay tomorrow and i didn't start yet. simply cuz i just couldn't get myself to start. like really couldn't get myself to start. and normally the consequences of not making it would dawn on me and make me make it, but this time it just didn't. like it really didn't. it still hasn't. the only reason m probs gonna make it cuz its a group thing and i don't wanna be that person. 
          
          thirdly, i realised how i'll never live the life i'm imagining myself to live. like never never. that's cuz of a couple of reasons (1) i'll never get a girl- or boyfriend because i just can't imagine someone liking me and i don't talk to people who are attracted to girls like i don't get into that talking phase and probs never will, (2) my desire to have everyone like me will be in the way cuz it won't be quote on quote normal, (3) m one of the most depended people i know and boy that aint a good thing. 
          
          hahah the worst is that no one will actually read this cuz why would someone, right? this is just me being annoying ✌️. 
          
          so just enjoy this chapter will ya. then m at least good for one thing.
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/126297952

HermioneGranger18796

@starlordesses aww, i hope ur life gets better soon ig. i read this so all of that effort wasnt just a waste of time. i love annoying ppl (dont ask why) nd would love to be besties with u!
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