Katie C.

He won't know it's here, but i wrote something about someone. I'm going through tough time with some stuff, so expect some poems in about 2 weeks
          
          Waiting, But Not Forever
          I watch you smile when you say her name,
          Like she’s the spark inside your flame.
          And even though she let you go,
          She’s still the one you miss, I know.
          You’re here for me through all my pain,
          Holding me up through pouring rain.
          You tell me time will heal the past,
          That broken hearts don’t always last.
          But what if mine breaks just for you?
          What if I’m falling—don’t you see, too?
          I bite my tongue, I play it cool,
          But loving you feels like a fool.
          I won’t beg, I won’t chase,
          I won’t wait forever in this place.
          I just wish one day you’d see,
          That maybe you belong with me.

HAPPIEST 15TH BIRTHDAY to my best friend, my favorite person, and my absolute rock!  Okay, I just made it before the day ended, but I still feel so bad for not posting earlier. The truth is, no amount of words could ever fully capture how much you mean to me, but I’m going to try anyway because you deserve to be celebrated today and every single day! From the moment we became friends, my life has been brighter, funnier, and filled with so many unforgettable memories. You are one of the kindest, funniest, and most caring people I know, and I honestly have no idea what I’d do without you. You always know how to make me laugh until my stomach hurts, how to lift me up when I’m down, and how to turn even the most boring days into the best ones. You inspire me every single day with your strength, your kindness, and your ability to light up any room you walk into. I admire you more than words can say, and I feel so incredibly lucky to have you as my best friend. You deserve all the happiness in the world—not just today, but always. Fifteen is such a big year, and I just know it’s going to be amazing for you. I hate that I wasn’t here earlier to hype you up, but trust me—this celebration is not over! We are going to make sure this birthday is unforgettable because you deserve it.  So here’s to another year of making incredible memories, laughing until we can’t breathe, and being the best duo ever. I love you endlessly, and I promise I’ll never, ever be late again (seriously, I’m setting like ten reminders for next year ). Happy, happy birthday, bestie! I hope your day has been as amazing as you are, and I can’t wait to celebrate properly soon! ❤️ #Happy15thBirthday #BestFriendForLife #ILoveYou #MakingItJustInTime #BirthdayQueen #CelebrationIsNotOver

was it just another move in your game, 
          that you won't admit you play?
          did you know what to say and do,
          so I would love you?
          were you messing with my mind,
          Now you pretending it's fine.
          No matter how it may sound, 
          that wasn't how I thought it would go down.
          you got me to fall for you, 
          now tell me what you want me to do.
          wait for something to start,
          while you mess with my heart?
          Fall for someone new,
          or sit around, waiting for you?
          Tell me, did you think about it for days,
          or keep going with your ways?
          should I just let you do your thing
           and just let it be?
          Or should I make things tough,
          and say enough is enough?
          I need to know, did you sleep with a grin?
          or was it another game you knew you would win?
          were you just doing what you always do,
          or did it actually mean something to you?
          if this is just another game for you to play,
          that's what you need to say.
          But if you think it could be real,
          Come tell me how you feel

and let’s talk about how the refs were basically handing the eagles free calls all game. like it was actually so annoying. every time the chiefs got momentum, boom, some random flag. but when the eagles did the exact same thing? silence. it’s like they didn’t want mahomes to win. and the eagles?? literally the most disrespectful team. running their mouths all game, getting away with cheap shots, and acting like they already won before the game was even over. they got lucky, that’s all i’m gonna say. everyone watching knew mahomes played better. man left it all on the field and still had to deal with the refs and the eagles getting every break. but whatever, real ones know mahomes is THAT guy.

and those throws?? actually unreal. sidearm, off balance, while getting chased by 300-pound dudes, and he STILL puts it exactly where it needs to be. like half these throws shouldn’t even be possible. he makes plays that would be career highlights for other qbs look casual. and when the chiefs needed him most, he showed up like always. like the man does NOT fold under pressure. ever. doesn’t matter if they’re losing, if the whole stadium is against him, or if the defense is coming at him with everything they’ve got, he just locks in and makes plays. it’s like he was built for these moments. and what makes it even crazier is that this isn’t some one-time thing. he’s been doing this for YEARS. this season alone he threw for 5,250 yards and 41 touchdowns, and he led the league in basically everything. and it’s not even his best season?? like in 2018 he had 50 touchdowns and over 5,000 yards like it was nothing. he’s already got two mvps, two rings, and he’s still young. tell me why people still try to say he’s not the goat. like be so for real.

Anyone watch the super bowl last night? I have some opinions. More coming soon!
          okay but like mahomes is actually not real. dude is built different and it’s honestly unfair at this point. like the eagles defense was coming at him full speed the whole game, and he still made it look easy. bro was literally running for his life half the time, but somehow still throwing and still trying.  HOW. expecially when he wasn’t throwing dimes til 4th quarter  like be so fr, who else is doing that?? most qbs get a little pressure and just throw the ball away or panic, but mahomes?? nah, he turns every broken play into magic. like he’ll have three guys chasing him down, and somehow he just spins out of it, sprints to the sideline, and then BOOM, perfect pass right on target. it’s actually insane. and let’s not forget his ankle was literally held together with duct tape and vibes. bro should not have even been running, but when the chiefs needed him, he took off like his life depended on it. and the pain was obvious too, like every time he got tackled you could see it in his face, but did he let it stop him? nope. he just got up, shook it off, and kept cooking. that’s different. that’s why he’s HIM.

Me and My Best Friend Have Been Dealing With Another Friend Being Distant And Pushing Us Away, And Here Is A Poem I Hope She Sees. I'm Gonna Call It Shadows Between Us
          
          I’ve known you since we were young
          I wanted a best friend,
          You became one
          But now I think we’re at the end.
          Stuff I trusted you to know
          To not tell a soul
          You went and told
          Now people know
          People I don’t trust to keep quiet
          So now I am letting him know
          Cause I wish he were lying
          And you didn’t just go
          And talk trash about me
          But I want to know,
          Is this how you want things to be?
          Snapping at your friends, 
          Every time we try to speak to you?
          All the messages you haven’t sent
          And all the days you made us feel bad?
          It was our fault you were sad
          Like we were doing something wrong?
          But we have the right to be mad
          But we’ve known you this long
          But I feel like this friendship is going all wrong
          I don’t know who you are these days
          Because you aren’t the person I knew
          You’re pushing me away
          I’ve always been there for you
          And you aren’t there for me
          I want things to go back
          To how they used to be
          But things feel out of whack
          I’ve known you since we were seven
          For almost ten years
          Now my trust has lessened 
          When you told my worst fears
          Now I’m wondering if we’re still friends
          Or strangers with memories
          Or if this is the end
          And we’re following an old melodie.
          So let me know
          If you just want me to go

My BF just broke up with me, over Gmail,  4 days before our 6 month anniversary
          
          
          You just broke it off
          Said you had enough
          Couldn’t even tell me face to face
          All my friends said this would be the case
          And do it on my own. 
          Our 6 month was in 4 days
          But I guess this was a road that goes only 1 way
          I was ready to fight for us
          To keep what we had
          But I guess there wasn’t anything at all
          I swore I wouldn’t fall again after the last time I did
          For this reason, to avoid all of this
          Said we didn’t have enough in common, that you were too busy
          I read it again and again, each time getting a little more dizzy
          I really Thought we could get over one little fight
          I really though i could make it right
          I don’t know what i did
          What made you want this
          I dealt with everytime you ghosted me
          Ignored it when i was told you were cheating
          When you forgot the day i turned 15
          I forgave everything
          Everytime you said you didn’t care
          When you said you would came but was never actually there
          Everytime i defended you,
          I would always stand up for you
          So i don’t know what i did wrong
          Or why you dragged it on this long
          Cause i have tried my very best
          And thought you were diffrent than the rest. 
          I overlooked all the red flags
          Told myself they were just dark pink
          I took a risk, dating once more
          Thought this time would be diffrent than before

A poem for my short friend   Love you Girl!!
          I have a short friend 
          Maybe 4’ 9’’
          She’s with me till the end 
          So I know everything will be fine
          She’s obsessed with horses
          And she loves Wallen too
          When everything’s slipping she’s my common force
          I don’t know what I’d do
          If I didn’t have you
          I hope I never have to find out
          You assure me when i’m in doubt
          I Hope i have you forever
          I’ll be with you through whatever
          If you ever need me i’ll be here
          And i’ll be okay as long as you are here
          I don’t know what i’d do without my short friend
          Hopefully you’re by my side until the very end

Poem I Wish Part 1
          There is all the stuff I used to wish for 
          But now I wish for much more
          I wish I still talked about him in the present tense
          I wish I could look in the mirror with confidence
          I wish the guy I love cared
          I wish we were the perfect pair
          I wish people would stop leaving me
          There is so much I wish I could be
          I wish my smiles were real again
          I wish I could be as happy as I was back then
          I wish the things I used to love were still fun
          And I wish cancer never killed no one