Katie C.

My BF just broke up with me, over Gmail,  4 days before our 6 month anniversary
          
          
          You just broke it off
          Said you had enough
          Couldn’t even tell me face to face
          All my friends said this would be the case
          And do it on my own. 
          Our 6 month was in 4 days
          But I guess this was a road that goes only 1 way
          I was ready to fight for us
          To keep what we had
          But I guess there wasn’t anything at all
          I swore I wouldn’t fall again after the last time I did
          For this reason, to avoid all of this
          Said we didn’t have enough in common, that you were too busy
          I read it again and again, each time getting a little more dizzy
          I really Thought we could get over one little fight
          I really though i could make it right
          I don’t know what i did
          What made you want this
          I dealt with everytime you ghosted me
          Ignored it when i was told you were cheating
          When you forgot the day i turned 15
          I forgave everything
          Everytime you said you didn’t care
          When you said you would came but was never actually there
          Everytime i defended you,
          I would always stand up for you
          So i don’t know what i did wrong
          Or why you dragged it on this long
          Cause i have tried my very best
          And thought you were diffrent than the rest. 
          I overlooked all the red flags
          Told myself they were just dark pink
          I took a risk, dating once more
          Thought this time would be diffrent than before

A poem for my short friend   Love you Girl!!
          I have a short friend 
          Maybe 4’ 9’’
          She’s with me till the end 
          So I know everything will be fine
          She’s obsessed with horses
          And she loves Wallen too
          When everything’s slipping she’s my common force
          I don’t know what I’d do
          If I didn’t have you
          I hope I never have to find out
          You assure me when i’m in doubt
          I Hope i have you forever
          I’ll be with you through whatever
          If you ever need me i’ll be here
          And i’ll be okay as long as you are here
          I don’t know what i’d do without my short friend
          Hopefully you’re by my side until the very end

Poem I Wish Part 1
          There is all the stuff I used to wish for 
          But now I wish for much more
          I wish I still talked about him in the present tense
          I wish I could look in the mirror with confidence
          I wish the guy I love cared
          I wish we were the perfect pair
          I wish people would stop leaving me
          There is so much I wish I could be
          I wish my smiles were real again
          I wish I could be as happy as I was back then
          I wish the things I used to love were still fun
          And I wish cancer never killed no one

A quick poem for all the adopted kids:
          
          It's where your smile is actually real
          It's where everyone cares about how you feel
          It's loving family dinners every night
          It's also where you sometimes fight
          But the love is always strong
          So don't get this wrong 
          It doesn't matter where you come from
          It only matters where you belong