@starrrburts
Been awake since 1 AM and it's now nearly 6 AM because I feel like throwing up and I'm too stupid to know which medicine to take so I have to wait till my dad wakes up check!
@TomHollandLover77 omg the meds didnt even work either I was up from 1 to like 9 until I could finally sleep
The last song he and I heard together was "From Now On" From "The Greatest Showman". funny how such a cheerful song can have a whole new meaning huh?
Dear best friend. I hope that you're good. Genuinely good. Since you've been gone it has not been easy, but I want to say Thank You. Even though it broke me into a million pieces when you left. I want to say thank you. even though I miss you everyday I want to say thank you. Thank you for inspiring me. inspiring me to be better. you make me want to work on myself. And even though... doing this without you by my side is the hardest things I've ever had to do, I'm doing it. and I wish you could be here to see me transform into this new person... but you're not here. I just hope your proud of me. I'm not mad.. I'm just.. in pain. But what's the sun without a little rain right? No matter where you are, I will stay strong and stand tall. Because I know you wouldn't want to see me fall. Because you're my biggest inspiration. And I want you to be proud of me. But I want you to keep going. I want you win even though I can't be there to celebrate with you. I want you to love yourself. I want you to be yourself. Be the light you want to see in the world. You have everything that you need inside of you. But you know that. I told you enough, but I want you to always remember. I hope you remember my words I told you when you were down on yourself. I hope you remember my words when you feel alone. And I hope you find the strength to pick yourself up if you ever fall. I know you can. I know you will. You're strong, you're intelligent, you're wonderful. You should believe in yourself because I believe in you. And no matter what happens. No matter what you do, no matter where you are in the world and no matter where I am... I will always love you. And that will never change. Maybe I am the sun, and you are the moon. But even they can be seen in the same sky sometimes. Until we meet again... take care.
@starrrburts We shall conquer depression through every new friend that shall help us along the way. All my friends have depression as well so we kinda help each other and be each other’s unprofessional therapist’ Happy fourth of july
@starrrburts ugh I know how you feel. I'm not over losing him but my heart don't hurt as much
@starrrburts omigosh in 5th grade my bestie left and i got D E P R E S S I O N but now i got new besties to help me through it “The sun will shine on us again brother.” -Loki, Avengers Infinity War
Hey everyone. As you can see my pfp is different. It's a screenshot of the last conversation my best friend, who was like a brother to me, and I had. I won't go into too much detail but he's going to a boarding school and they dont allow any electronics. which means I'll never be able to speak with him again. And he can't leave until he graduates. So I'll probably never see him again. Idk why I'm telling you guys this but I just needed to tell someone. I'm probably going to be kinda depressed for who knows how long.
Hey ya'll. This is kinda random but I feel like this should be brought and made aware of. Social Anxiety. I have this disorder and I feel people who don't, don't exactly understand what it is or how it feels. Social Anxiety is a mental disorder where someone's brain goes on OVERDRIVE when they are getting ready to go to or are at a social gathering. Even just doing day to day activities makes them feel extremely anxious. For example answering the phone or ordering food. It's like wanting to compliment someone but being too afraid. Social Anxiety is when you have a fear of being judged by others. Negatively. This can lead to depression and loneliness since as humans we need social interaction. The worst thing you could say to someone with social anxiety or just anxiety in general is "You're just doing it for attention." or "Just think about something else." Sadly its not that simple. People with social anxiety can't control what they think. They cannot drown out the tune of their own head. This sometimes causes us to shut down completely.. If I strike a conversation with you and I'm awkward and seem rude.. just know that this took EVERY OUNCE OF COURAGE I HAVE. Social anxiety is not an easy thing to live with. It almost feels like you have an anxiety attack everytime you even make eye-contact with someone. I'm sorry for typing such a long message but this had to be said. People with this disorder come off as rude but they really can't help it.. they're just afraid.
@TomHollandLover77 ikr social anxiety sucks one time I literally acted like I was deaf so people wouldn't talk to me oml
@starrrburts I know how ya feel. I a little bit of social anxiety and I have thantophobia which is one of the worst things to have while you have social anxiety it’s not very fun.... I just told all my friends(I say this like it’s a lot but I only have 2) that I have thantophobia and they all understood.
bruh why are people so fricken rude now like why??? its so annoying how people just have a lack of respect.
do not question my change of username and pfp I just wanted to change it but in case ya'll dont remember I was whytho___ tehee IM A MANNN NOW
I don't know if anyone is going to see this but I need to let it out. I am so tired. mentally.. emotionally. I am exhausted. I have been having breakdowns almost daily for a while. I've been dealing with anxiety all my life. i am dealing will loneliness for such a long long time. I am so tired. I feel so worthless and alone all the time. people say it gets better but I'm sick of it. nothing motivates me anymore. I've become numb to my sadness. hell, I still cry about my best friend who died ages ago. I'm such a mess. and I feel so unwanted and a burden to everyone. I could ramble on so I'll stop here. thanks for reading I just had to let this out.
@benswolosnipples thank you so much. I just really need some support rn dealing with lonliness and quarantine at the same time Is hard. thank you for the reassurance. I am feeling better now I just had to let go of some burdens I had on myself and accept some facts. TYSM for helping at just being there. sometimes I dont see how lucky I rlly am.♡♡♡
@whytho___ hi! i saw this and um, i just wanted to say that, you're not a burden nor unwanted. you're important to people in your life too! trust me, i've felt like that a couple times (except for the anxiety part ive never really gotten diagnosed with anything) but i remember all the people who loves me! i hope everything will get better. wait no, everything WILL get better. don't worry. i'm sorry for your best friend, i'm sure she would want you to be happy. i hope you finally find it, your happiness. i love you. if i knew you irl, i would LITERALLY do everything i can to give you love and happiness! unfortunately i don't, know you. i sincerely wish that you can finally not let your negative emotions get the better of you. one more time, i love you. stay strong ✨✨✨
@Finsko_Finland ayyy thanks sis ❤❤❤❤
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