I'm very clingy and awkward and I apologise a lot so if you wanna become my friend beware lmao. I'm also super childish and I have anxiety, depression and paranoia and other shizzle so again, beware. The reason I lose friends is because
1. I worry about them too much and if it takes them more than 2 mins to reply I immediately think they hate me.

2. I become paranoid and need constant reassuring about like, what time we're hanging out at, what date we're hanging out at, who's coming with us, I have to organise an entire page on Wattpad saying what's gonna happen, I plan it out too much and I'm too clingy when we do hang out.

3. I'm constantly sad and I always make my friends sad and burden them with my issues and that's why they leave too yikes.

4. They have to force me to actually eat food or I'll literally not eat at all. At school my friend Violet has to make me eat and tell me if I don't eat she'll kick me in the shin or chin or she'll slap me oOpS.

5. I always say I'm fat and ugly around them and my friend Ben told me the average weight for a 12 - 13 year old is 8 stone and I'm 8"10 stone yet I'm only 5'1 or 5'2 height wise. I am fat and he doesn't even understand it rip. I feel bad that he has to deal with me.

And finally,
6. I always have paranoia and say to my friends at school and all stuff like 'what if that person hates me and tried to kill me' 'what if he finds out where I live, rapes me and murders me' 'can you come to the bathroom with me if I go alone I'll get kidnapped' 'he intimidates me so much and it scares me because he's so tall and he's a year older than me and he's so big and what if he tells me my friend wants to talk to me in private and takes me to a bathroom and rapes me HeLp'
Yikes I'm a mess oops.