starrymeng

I can never write my thoughts without anything triggering in my mind. Ewan I think I can only write masterpieces kapag sobrang outraged or overwhelmed or what and note, laging as of the moment. Wala parang sa Eureka moments lang talaga mangyayari mga ganun. So yeah, hindi talaga ako magaling mag-sulat kasi lahat ng planado kong pagsusulat, it sucks. (For my opinion and I think for others' too. Zzokay tho) Ayun, dumaldal nanaman ako. I really have one one else to talk to nor anything else I can do so, I'm voicing out my thoughts. Mind you, every. 
          	 #voicingouteverythought

starrymeng

I can never write my thoughts without anything triggering in my mind. Ewan I think I can only write masterpieces kapag sobrang outraged or overwhelmed or what and note, laging as of the moment. Wala parang sa Eureka moments lang talaga mangyayari mga ganun. So yeah, hindi talaga ako magaling mag-sulat kasi lahat ng planado kong pagsusulat, it sucks. (For my opinion and I think for others' too. Zzokay tho) Ayun, dumaldal nanaman ako. I really have one one else to talk to nor anything else I can do so, I'm voicing out my thoughts. Mind you, every. 
           #voicingouteverythought

starrymeng

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          I thought being smart means agreeing to other people's smart ideas. But no, being smart means being able to express your own opinions using your own references and observations and being able to build your own foundation of beliefs based on lessons from your mishaps or any personal perhaps intended studying. Being smart does not only involve nodding but also plotting. Besides, you can't just agree to every word other people say just because you think they're smart and it makes them right. You have your own mind with your own abilities and intelligence, so think and speak accordingly.
           #voicingouteverythought

starrymeng

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           #voicingouteverythought
          
          Bakit ganu'n? Trip na trip ko na talaga mag-sulat ng story pero lagi ko na lang iniisip na may standards. Hay. Alam mo 'yung feeling na 'yun?  Hahaha. Ang daming kong tanong, peste. Pero 'yung nga feel ko palaging may magjujudge na gawa ko (which is meron naman talaga) pero alam mo yung, judge judge? Ugh ang gulo ko talaga.  Basta yun na yun. So ngayon dahil hindi ko naman talagang ugaling  umayon na lang sa flow HHEHEHE i beg to differ talaga.  Or hindi? Aba ewan. BASTA--

starrymeng

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          I therefore conclude it's unfair. Or fair. I don't know.
          
          Nagsimula sa simpleng ngitian, sa simpleng 'hi' at 'hello' , sa simpleng 'oy' at 'sup' sa mga simpleng 'HAHAHAHAHA' . Wala naman talaga akong pakielam dati. 'It was like autumn, the leaves are falling, and they're falling like they are falling in love with the ground. ' Bakit ganun? Hindi ko ma-explain 'yung nararamdama ko ngayon..masaya? malungkot? bitin? HAHAHAHAH.
          
          HAHAHAH?? HAHA? Tumatawa ba ako? 
          
          Hindi na ako magpapaimpress, straight to the point na lang. Minsan iniisip ko kung ano nga bang mas masakit. 'Yung katulad sa mga tragic stories na namatay yung lalake? O 'yung realidad na alam mong nandiyan siya pero wala siya sa tabi mo. Yung ang lapit niya pero hindi mo siya kaya--hindi mo siya pwedeng abutin? I'll choose the latter. Ang daming nangyari..may mga inggitan, selosan, at may mga times na hindi ko na malaman kung ano bang dapat kong maramdaman.
          
          Pinilit ko naman isaksak sa kokote ko na wala. Kase wala naman talaga. Hindi rin naman ako umasa. Pinigilan ko ring umasa. Pero bakit masakit? Ako lang ba ang nagsasabing, hindi ako umasa? O umasa talaga ako ayaw ko lang aminin? Hindi ko na alam. Basta ang alam ko lang, hindi ako nagsisisi. Never ako magsisisi. Kase thankful ako doon sa friendship. Yes, I'm thankful. Kase you didn't make it hard for me. I know my priorities and I didn't have to choose. Kase alam kong nandiyan ka lang kahit hindi kita piliin. At vice versa, alam mong nandito lang ako kahit hindi mo ako piliin. 
          
          Dahil may mga bagay na may mas importante sa kanila pero hindi mo rin silang kaya mawala. Thank you for not making it hard for me. 
          
          If tayo, tayo. Laos na pero I guarantee my stand. Masyado pa tayong bata. And when I mean bata not necessarily  a number. But bata, as in immature pa at hindi pa kayang harapin ang mga challenges na nasa karampatang level. I, thankyou talaga, I. 
          
          Thanks for leaving and staying at the same time :)