starryrubyskies

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          	hello y’all i have a few things to say
          	
          	1. i am alive and suffering in college :’) compsci is rough man
          	2. my sleep schedule has gone to absolute garbage [current time writing this: 3:41am]
          	3. i’m rereading some of tsp’s arcs and i’m laughing so hard because man. fourteen year old me wrote pure cringe but that cringe had potential ig cause i’m tempted to rewrite the whole thing privately with my nineteen year old writers brain just for fun
          	
          	back to hiatus <3
          	
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starryrubyskies

*slides in*
          
          hello y’all i have a few things to say
          
          1. i am alive and suffering in college :’) compsci is rough man
          2. my sleep schedule has gone to absolute garbage [current time writing this: 3:41am]
          3. i’m rereading some of tsp’s arcs and i’m laughing so hard because man. fourteen year old me wrote pure cringe but that cringe had potential ig cause i’m tempted to rewrite the whole thing privately with my nineteen year old writers brain just for fun
          
          back to hiatus <3
          
          *slides out*

starryrubyskies

I know I had already made an announcement regarding TSP's fate (which I have deleted - thank you to those who responded, though), but after posting it, I felt so uncomfortable for some reason, despite it being a decision I had made way back months ago. So I decided to give it more thought, and I think I've personally come to a tentatively final one that will give me some peace.
          
          In general, besides struggling with my own writing, TSP has been a sore thought in my head. I haven't lied about my love for this fanfiction, but the more I thought about it lately, the more I realized the happiness I feel towards the idea of continuing to post for TSP didn't outweight the dread (and slight embarassment) of it. I'm not the same thirteen year old girl who was passionately writing a silly story in class anymore. Heck, I'm turning 19 next week, and in those six years I've changed a lot as a person, both in taste and in writing. 
          
          In short, the harsh realization that I've come up with is that I've severely outgrown TSP, and the last announcement was a measly attempt to try and cling onto some part of my childhood that was left open ended. Because of this, as if right now, TSP will be place on an indefinite hiatus, and I'm not 100% sure if I'll ever return to post the rest at all.
          
          I know it's unfair to you all if you guys care, and I'm so, so sorry for breaking my promise of never giving up on TSP. I've emphasized this promise so many times I've lost count, and the fact that I'm biting back on my words now is shameful. I think that a small part of me that encouraged that promise still wants to continue on, so there is a good chance that I could return and post the rest, just for the sake of my own satisfaction and completetion. So who knows, maybe after I tentatively find it in myself to write and complete TSP, I'll post the rest all at once.

starryrubyskies

P.S. Wayyy later notice because I almost forgot about it, but I also deleted the portion of my author's note with the TSP Discord link. It has been inactive for a bit now anyway :') I'm currently debating whether to purge the entire Discord, but as of right now the link is gone and there won't be any more public access to it. I also (well, I have been already) won't be stopping by the server either.
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starryrubyskies

However at this moment, I feel like any connection I've made toward TSP that I still have will have to be developed offline, whether it is because I still want to elaborate on some ideas of TSP that I have lingering on my head, or if I ever get the taste of nostalgia that Awakening once gave me again. To be honest, I personally do want to continue what I've had - the few arcs I had planned after Lost in History is something that honestly HAS been floating in my head for years, and I also want to write more for the Swan and the Archer in the Untold Stories. I've even gotten started on the first chapter for the rewrite. 
            
            But the severe uncomfort of the idea of even continuing TSP is really holding me back from continuing publically. Perhaps it's because I know that TSP is incredibly faulty and written from an immature mindset. Perhaps it's because I don't have as much confidence to post publically anything I'm writing again, until I feel much more relaxed. But I know that the overall picture is that, again, I've truly outgrown the childish nature of TSP, and really just want any leftover marianted ideas to be something that I like to do privately in my free time, so it feels more like a nostalgic hobby rather than a chore I need to finish. 
            
            I'm going to leave this announcement as unlisted in notifcations, because I'm not sure if many of my audience even remain. I'm sure that like me, many of us have outgrown TSP or even Wattpad. This is going to be here just for if you guys ever wonder what ever happened to TSP or its progress (that is to say if I haven't posted at all since this).
            
            I'll be tuning into this account from time to time, just to support some people's works if I'm ever around to catch them. If you have my Discord, then you're welcome to chat with me as well! 
            
            Otherwise, until then. Love you all <3
            
            Sincerely,
            Annie
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starryrubyskies

Hi y'all. It's been a while. 
          
          I'd first like to tell my lovely TSP readers that I'm so sorry for disappearing for so long AND putting the book on such sudden and quiet hiatus. It really wasn't my intention to completely neglect TSP for so long. Adjustment to college has been much tougher than I had anticipated, and life in general has hurdled a lot at me. I'm not COMPLETELY changed as a person, but I'm very different than who I was last year, or even the last time I updated y'all on my whereabouts. Lost some close friendships, lost trust in others, lost mental stability (lol), the usual. All in all, life goes on, and it depends on how you look at things and fix them. It's still a work in progress, but I'm trying. 
          
          Writing in general has been very tough; though it's still a deep rooted passion and I still dream one day of publishing my own novel, I have to admit that I don't write as often anymore. In the present day, I've been very afraid that my writing has been or has turned lackluster within the recent year. Besides a busy daily life, I've also been held back this very reason when it comes to TSP. I have to admit, even though TSP is a rewrite from the original Magic and War book, it's still incredibly faulty. Granted, Magic and War was crafted when I was an innocent eleven year old child who was just beginning to learn how to write, and TSP itself was made as a determined thirteen year old girl with a desperation to be involved in something great, but as an eighteen year old who's had changed (and still developing experience), I hate to say it but...a lot of TSP, especially in the beginning...is bad. And that realization was one of the reasons why last year I stopped updating and writing so frequently. My insecurities and worry took over my confidence in writing, and I just...couldn't.

JessWylder

@starryrubyskies Good luck with whatever you decide to do -- the decision is yours. Whatever you choose to do will be the right thing. 
            
            Also, just because something could be better doesn't mean that it's not good. I've felt like this about projects that I wrote when I was younger before, and although after a few years I started agonising about all that project's flaws and how the story could be better, eventually I remembered how to see all the things that were good in it, too. So many people love TSP -- that means it's good, even if you can also see things that you wish you'd done differently. 
            
            I hope that you enjoy working on whatever decision you make. ;)
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starryrubyskies

@Sophia_Redwood @IronFreak71 Thank you both for your kind words and understanding!! You’re both right, this is all part of my writing journey, no matter how unsatisfying or satisfying each step is. I can say, however, is meeting/interacting with readers like y’all is one of the most motivating parts. 
            
            Ultimately I think I’ve made a decision, but I’m gonna wait until I catch up with my workload to announce it or even do anything about it. Thank you again ❤️
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IronFreak71

Do whatever you feel comfortable with—whether it’s finishing the remaining arcs of the story or just the epilogue of the current arc and jumping to a rewritten story, I completely understand struggling to be happy with one’s work.
            
            When I originally started writing on Wattpad, it was originally just to sort the ideas I kept getting since it always feels like my imagination is working in overdrive. Even though I’ve been writing drafts for over a year, I haven’t published anything since I both keep getting better ideas, and I want to be absolutely sure everything is right. I actually began my own rewrite of my characters and storyline recently because they didn’t feel fleshed out enough for me.
            
            In the end, do what you feel most comfortable with—we’ll still be here.
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starryrubyskies

Life update!
          
          College is absolutely kicking my butt right now (the quarter system can SUCK IT) (I'm actually supposed to be studying for a midterm right now lol), so life's been pretty hectic but fun! I moved to begin dorm life and started a new chapter, so bye bye the fast internet in my home, hello crappy university wifi! (pain.)
          
          As for writing stuff, I admittedly haven't written in TSP or my original WIPs since I started hardcore prepping for college, but I'm also taking a creative writing class, so hearing everyone's own perspective and reading my peers' writing has been pretty motivating-ish. I chopped out half of the finale to Lost in History before I paused on writing all together, so after I get through the hell that is exams, I'll see if I can wrack my skull for some brain power so I can finish it and put it up soon. It'll be up eventually! 
          
          Thank you for your patience everyone! I know I've been stretching it thin.

Emilyabcde1ara

@starryrubyskies Glad to hear from you again! I'll be super excited whenever you post, so take your time! I'll be the first one clicking, haha. :D
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starryrubyskies

There are some ships from my childhood that I will love eternally....and there are some ships from my childhood that I venomously hate romantically together. It's actually kind of nice to grow up a bit to see what ships are not mature, which ships are toxic, and what ships are just...why. Why did I like that?
          
          (For the record, Chrobin is NOT on that list. One of my true OTPs of all time. I'll ship them until I'm an old bitter granny.)

starryrubyskies

Also, I remember being THAT person that was loyal to one ship and one ship only, and now I'm chilling as a multishipper, sometimes with favorite pairings but overall having a blast with more content than I would have had in the past. It's fun!
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