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drove for the first time today!! in a super huge + empty gravel parking lot with no lines or curbs. I still lurch a bit when I stop because I’m not used to the amount of pressure needed on the brake and I haven’t even tried the gas pedal yet, but it’s definitely a start. I’m feeling significantly more confident about turns and shoulderchecking/looking in the mirrors :]
          it’s not as scary as I thought it would be, and I can even feel my muscle memory for the controls developing already. reaally not sure if I’ll be ready to drive in the city for my road test next yr tho.. those skinny crowded streets n irritated drivers terrify me lmao

the reactions say everything. if he had lost, his supporters would’ve been annoyed, angry at most. it would be an inconvenience. But he won. And i have never seen such raw dread on a person’s face before. every face I’ve seen today has been the same. people have lost hope, they’re so devastated they can’t even cry anymore, they’re afraid for their lives and the lives of those they care about. that is so fucked up, i can’t even explain it right. but i don’t know how some people can’t see that something is very wrong. the fact that over half of the US chose fleeting self-convenience over the livelihood of so many fellow human beings. it’s surreal

god fucking damnit. are you shitting me? I’ll be TWENTY FUCKING YEARS OLD when his term ends. If he even makes it that long, i mean he is fucking senile. But i can’t even wish death on him because that would mean his shit excuse for a vice president would have to step in.
          “but Eden you don’t even live in America!! what gives you the right to judge their politics??” um actually shut the fuck up! America is unfortunately one of the most influential countries in the world, and so the decisions of the current president will absolutely affect other countries.
          my heart goes out to everyone who will be targeted over the next 4 years. I sincerely hope you have the resources and willpower to protect yourselves or leave.
          and to everyone who voted third party or not at all, fuck you. Your vote attributed to his win. I hope you know that and feel guilty as you watch your fellow American citizens suffer. As a Canadian and a minor, i hate to watch this train wreck go down and i wish there was something I could’ve done.
          if your mindset is “but Kamala was bad too, so i didn’t want her to win either” then clearly you have no idea how voting works. Because Kamala wouldn’t be the ideal president by a long shot, but at least people IN america would be safer than they will be now. It’s terrible to have to choose the lesser of two evils, i know. But by not taking action you’ve allowed the GREATER evil to LEAD YOUR FUCKING COUNTRY.
          I hope America learns their lesson. Buckle up.

ARCANE ARCANE ARCANE!!!!!!!!!

im sick n tired of period mood swings. it’s not even funny I’m so exhausted out of nowhere and I’ve been having a pretty good week but I could burst into tears at any moment. I’m not even slightly sad. I WAS SO NORMAL YESTERDAY UUGGGHHH
          I went to the profile of an editor I like on tiktok using my public account and when I tried to click on it using my personal acc i found out they BLOCKED ME?? turns out I was unintentionally spam liking because I loved all of their edits sm. HELPP I DIDNT MEAN TO and in my brain I’m like haha that’s actually really funny and not a big deal at all but because my period starts tdy I almost cried. THIS IS STUPID
          it’s like I’m being possessed and my real self is like stuck in the back of my brain and can’t control anything
          

happy thanksgiving !!
          I can’t wait to shovel leftover turkey/stuffing/gravy/cranberry/mashed potatoes all mixed together into my mouth. probs one of my fav meals

I’m 16!! forgot to post but my birthday was 2 days ago :]

haha,, guys,,, opinions on When Angels Fall finale post-plot-twist Aphmau + Aaron paired with the song (Do the) Act Like You Never Met Me by TV Girl?? guys???
          
          
          
          if I made edits I would be unstoppable. just so u know

supposed to be writing my notes for my mid-unit trig review tmr but I have become completely and inexplicably consumed by Aphmau rp series angst (mainly MyStreet bc it’s my OG)
          I can feel myself regressibg,, MyStreet s7 save me,,,
          lowkey i miss 2019 uurrrgrhh

@Willow-Heart @W0rmzOnStringss
          so much stuff happened regarding that last chapter in my announcements book that u both commented on!! in a positive way i promise.
          but alas it has since been unpublished because my account has been discovered. so. take from that what u will :]