Strangely Calamitous

Reading through my old posts is making me realize I've literally gotten no where in life.

It's hard to let go of a person who makes you sad, when they're the only reason you ever smiled in the first place.

I realized something that is eye opening... 
          When people sacrifice themselves to save someone else, whether it be taking a bullet for them, they're not always doing it for the other person, sometimes they're doing it for themselves just so they won't have to bare the pain of living without them.

I wonder how many times I've forgiven you even when you didn't deserve it, because I didn't want to lose you.

"You can close your eyes to something you do not want to see, but you can't close your heart to something you do not want to feel."

We IGNORE the ones that ADORE us, ADORE the ones that IGNORE us, LOVE the ones who HURT us, and HURT the ones who LOVE us.

Should I smile because we're friends, or should I cry because that's the only thing we will ever be.

My anxieties have anxieties.

@sleppihead_03 aww thanks :) and how do you know I'm not a guy... I'm just.. Unknown. 

I thought you actually cared about me, but turns out I was wrong. I just stood there watching my love and trust in you burn out.