I think, the hardest thing as a bl fan is when your ship is slowly falling apart. They used to be your comfort ship, they used to be best buddies, they used to be a lovey-dovey on and off cam but in just a blink of an eye, your ship is falling apart but you couldn't do anything because in the end, it is their choice.
The awkwardness of them on cam and you, slowly realizing, that they aren't the old them.
You couldn't do anything but accept things and respect their decisions. It is so hard to move on especially when they become your comfort/main ship. I know I am not the only one who always cries and reminisces whenever I hear their song.
Darn, how I wish I could travel to the year when they are still close, when everything's still fine. How I wish everything would become fine so one day, they will come back to us.
