Hi it’s Gigi.
I know many of my followers have left this app or don’t even use it like me anymore, truly it was era that may have shaped us, in a good or bad way. I’m not sure why I’m making this at all, a part of me hopes there’s some that still want to see me write, or just because I’m bored lol.
In truth, I’m not even sure whether I’m coming back to keep writing. I love making stories and creating characters, but all of that energy of doing things has shifted onto my hobby. I’m currently working on a webtoon so it’s taken quite some time, despite going on a 2 year hiatus. I work really slow, and my drive doesn’t go on every day. Sometimes, I just don’t feel like drawing and take breaks until I’m ready again, it’s a very toxic cycle I put myself through, and it limits me to create pieces and finish projects in the time I want to.
I guess this applies to writing as well. I feel like writing and continuing my story some days, but when I actually do, I sit there dumbfounded and often distract myself most of the time. Man, I guess high school really does change you lol. I’ve been reading my stories again and some have potential, but I guess I’m just afraid it won’t do well as I hoped, no matter if I put the time an effort or not. I think I’m just really unlucky when it comes to success.
I don’t know what the purpose of writing this was at all. I needed a place to vent out and show what I’ve been up to lately. A small fraction of me wants to write again because it’s something I enjoy doing, thinking about the complexities of stories and the back stories of characters. But I know most of the people following me have left this app, so I’m not sure who I’m doing this for, myself? Well I don’t know.
I hope I have the courage to come back when I’m ready. But soon enough, I’ll probably leave again. Still, if it’s a small motivation that makes me write, I want to hold it on.
Until next time.
