strawberheecake

Hi, Dalgis. How are we all holding up? 
          	
          	I know I’ve been offline for a while. Work has had me pulling 15+ hour days every day of the week during peak season. But after everything that’s happened in the past 24 hours, I felt the need to come online and check in with you all.
          	
          	I honestly don’t even know how to put my feelings into words. The news of Heeseung leaving Enhypen completely shattered me. I cried a lot all day today, sent plenty of emotional texts to friends, and now I’m mostly left feeling confused by how sudden this entire announcement was.
          	
          	Right now, I'm finding it hard to decipher what’s true and what isn’t. The Heeseung I’ve come to know as an Engene never felt like someone who would leave the group just to pursue a solo career. I always imagined him releasing solo work while still standing beside the members. But I digress. No matter how much content we see, we truly don’t know what happens behind the scenes within a company.
          	
          	There is, however, one thing I am certain of: Enhypen will always be seven in my heart. There is no perfect version of the group unless all seven members are on stage together with Engenes cheering them on. 
          	
          	I am truly hoping for more transparency soon, from the company and from the members. I especially want to hear from the members to know that they're alright. My heart also goes out to Jungwon, Jay, Jake, Sunghoon, Sunoo, and Ni-ki. I can’t imagine how difficult this must be for them as well. 
          	
          	No matter what the truth ends up being, my support won’t change. If this situation was forced on Heeseung, then I’m ready to fight for his return. But if this was truly his decision to follow a new path, then I will support his solo career wholeheartedly while continuing to support Enhypen as always.
          	
          	Please take care of yourselves, Dalgis. I know a lot of us are hurting right now ❤️

strawberheecake

@ilovepocketzsm Awe I've missed you too!! And, yes!! There are so many things that aren't adding up about this situation. I've been doing my best to keep up during my lunch and dinner breaks and my head is starting to hurt from trying to even process how this all makes sense. 
          	  
          	  I don't want to give myself false hope, but a small part of me believes that this might end with Heeseung returning to the group. 
          	  
          	  I really don't think boycotting the group will do any good. We need to show the company and everyone else watching that Engenes will support all seven members through thick and thin. 
          	  
          	  And if when Heeseung is finally able to share his personal thoughts without the company giving him a script to read, and he shares that it was his personal intention to pursue a solo career, then I will 100% support him. But until I can hear from him, I'm not buying any of this. 
          	  
          	  Either way, I will continue to support all the members no matter what!!
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ilovepocketzsm

@strawberheecake owhh I've honestly missed u ~○♡○~, but the heeseung situation is just so off, right?? Like wdym he decides to leave on a random TUESDAY.
          	  
          	  But yeah we should continue supporting him and enha because I've already seen multiple people boycotting enhypen on tiktok and making hate posts
          	  
          	  Take care of yourself too!! Rest, drink lots of water and eat a lot!!
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strawberheecake

Hi, Dalgis. How are we all holding up? 
          
          I know I’ve been offline for a while. Work has had me pulling 15+ hour days every day of the week during peak season. But after everything that’s happened in the past 24 hours, I felt the need to come online and check in with you all.
          
          I honestly don’t even know how to put my feelings into words. The news of Heeseung leaving Enhypen completely shattered me. I cried a lot all day today, sent plenty of emotional texts to friends, and now I’m mostly left feeling confused by how sudden this entire announcement was.
          
          Right now, I'm finding it hard to decipher what’s true and what isn’t. The Heeseung I’ve come to know as an Engene never felt like someone who would leave the group just to pursue a solo career. I always imagined him releasing solo work while still standing beside the members. But I digress. No matter how much content we see, we truly don’t know what happens behind the scenes within a company.
          
          There is, however, one thing I am certain of: Enhypen will always be seven in my heart. There is no perfect version of the group unless all seven members are on stage together with Engenes cheering them on. 
          
          I am truly hoping for more transparency soon, from the company and from the members. I especially want to hear from the members to know that they're alright. My heart also goes out to Jungwon, Jay, Jake, Sunghoon, Sunoo, and Ni-ki. I can’t imagine how difficult this must be for them as well. 
          
          No matter what the truth ends up being, my support won’t change. If this situation was forced on Heeseung, then I’m ready to fight for his return. But if this was truly his decision to follow a new path, then I will support his solo career wholeheartedly while continuing to support Enhypen as always.
          
          Please take care of yourselves, Dalgis. I know a lot of us are hurting right now ❤️

strawberheecake

@ilovepocketzsm Awe I've missed you too!! And, yes!! There are so many things that aren't adding up about this situation. I've been doing my best to keep up during my lunch and dinner breaks and my head is starting to hurt from trying to even process how this all makes sense. 
            
            I don't want to give myself false hope, but a small part of me believes that this might end with Heeseung returning to the group. 
            
            I really don't think boycotting the group will do any good. We need to show the company and everyone else watching that Engenes will support all seven members through thick and thin. 
            
            And if when Heeseung is finally able to share his personal thoughts without the company giving him a script to read, and he shares that it was his personal intention to pursue a solo career, then I will 100% support him. But until I can hear from him, I'm not buying any of this. 
            
            Either way, I will continue to support all the members no matter what!!
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ilovepocketzsm

@strawberheecake owhh I've honestly missed u ~○♡○~, but the heeseung situation is just so off, right?? Like wdym he decides to leave on a random TUESDAY.
            
            But yeah we should continue supporting him and enha because I've already seen multiple people boycotting enhypen on tiktok and making hate posts
            
            Take care of yourself too!! Rest, drink lots of water and eat a lot!!
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Misss_yoii

HEESEUNG LEFT?! GIRL MY BIAS WRECKER.. YOUR BIAS.. LEFTTTT

strawberheecake

@Misss_yoii GIRL I SAW. I'M LITERALLY SO HEARTBROKEN. I've cried over this so many times and I can't even tell you how much I hope for a possibility for us to get him back into the group. But I also recognize that it'll be very hard even if it is possible. 
            
            Idk, I'm just reminded of him everywhere I go. Through my playlists or even just in my room. His merch is EVERYWHERE. And I just want to cry every time I see a glimpse of him. 
            
            How are you holding up?
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Chatayer

Wife, I need you to awaken from your offline slumber. Heeseung just left Enhypen. 
          
          I'm stupefied.

Chatayer

@strawberheecake It's been a mess lol--for the guys and the fans. This protest Engenes are doing is going to hurt all parties, I'll bet.
            
            Me too. I thought they were doing an early April Fools, but apparently not. I hadn't even been in touch with what's been happening in K-Pop for a long time. I'd just been lurking on Reddit for shits and giggles. 
            
            I know. It still feels like a fever dream. 
            
            There's plenty we just will never get to know, honestly. 
            
            From what I've read, Heeseung couldn't put up with all the crap that comes with being an idol (especially their ridiculous schedule since 2022), and more power to him for taking a step back. However, I also conclude that he'd have wanted to stay an Enhypen member and do his solo at the same time. TXT's done that with Yeonjun's solo (and what a project it was). I'm guessing, though, that it just came to a head on March 10, and BELIFT gave him a choice: either continue working within Enhypen and wait for the solo opportunity longer (this after they've continuously put him off of releasing anything solo--apparently he was supposed to release something solo in 2024/2025, and that didn't pan out), or quit and go solo fully, because there's quite literally no space within the group schedules for the foreseeable future. And I guess he chose the latter. 
            
            I wish all the guys the best of luck, really. It's not the most ideal situation, but I'm hoping that they can make peace with it and come out stronger.
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strawberheecake

@Chatayer Omg Boo, I'm literally so heartbroken. As a Heeseung bias through and through, I can't even count how many times I've bawled my eyes out after finding out about the news. 
            
            I think I was in pure shock at first. I just felt so numb to the world for the first hour. But I started spiraling on Twitter. Not to mention that it was 1 in the morning for me, and I fully needed to get up for work in less than 5 hours. But I couldn't sleep when my mind was racing. 
            
            I literally had the worst sleep ever last night. Kept waking up intermittently, and I kept dreaming about reading the announcement all over again. 
            
            And all of today at work, I've had this aching feeling in my chest that never settled. It's like I'm waiting for the second shoe to drop. But I can't imagine anything worse than this at the moment. 
            
            Idk, I'm just so confused by the entire situation. And I think the thing that will comfort me most right now is just hearing from the members. Even if they express that they're upset by the news, or that they're in agreement. I just want to hear from them to know that they're processing and that they're ok. But I know they'll need time and space as well. 
            
            I heard the fancall with Heeseung today was postponed. Hopefully, the fancalls with the other members are still going so that we can hear from them. But also, maybe not. Maybe they deserve an extra day to rest and process. Idk I fear I'm a mess right now
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strawberheecake

OMG!! How are we feeling about The Sin : Vanish?! It dropped while I was still at work and I kid you not, my coworkers (they all know that I'm a huge Engene) were practically counting down to the release with me LOL. 
          
          I've been seeing some divided reviews on the album on Twitter... but I personally love it! I think this album is definitely R&B and hip-hop heavy, which actually coincides really nicely with the non-kpop artists I listen to. So it's definitely safe to say this album was exactly my cup of tea LOL. I also can't get over the new vocal colors we're hearing with Heeseung's different registers?! (Can we also talk about how freaky this album is? Like I wanna know what the producers told Heeseung & Jake when they recorded their 2nd verse for Big Girls Don't Cry)
          
          I'm not sure if I have a favorite track yet. If I had to narrow it down, I'd say it's between Stealer and Big Girls Don't Cry right now, but my opinion still changes on a daily basis. 
          
          Also, this might be a hot take... but dare I say: No Way Back should've been the title track. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE Knife. It is exactly what this comeback needed, and honestly, I think of it as Outside's sister. And if you know me, you know I streamed the sh*t outta Outside. BUT, with that said, I think No Way Back just suits their lore a little better in terms of the mood. Lol, don't hate me too much if you disagree. I still really love Knife and enjoy every single moment of watching all their Knife promotional activities. 
          
          This album release is exactly what I needed to motivate myself through my busy season at work, but also to push myself to continue drafting my upcoming OT7 x reader fic. It's coming along slowly and steadily, but it's happening! My goal is to share it this summer, so I'll definitely lock in on the weekends to work toward making it happen!
          
          I've missed you all so much and hope you've all been staying safe, happy, and healthy! I love you ❤️❤️

Zahraaaaaaaaaa11

@strawberheecake missed you too! but i', in love with the new album, like i need no way back injected into my soul. And that's so sweet of your co-workers :D
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chanel_nini

hiii how are you? i hope you still remember me haha, been a long time since we talked ^^

strawberheecake

@chanel_nini OMG hiiii!! Of course I still remember you ❤️❤️❤️ It's definitely been a while since we last spoke. I think we were still chatting on Discord last time haha. I hope you've been doing well! I've been well myself. Just gearing up for another busy season at work, and I'm working on a new Enhypen fic!
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saikripa123

Hiii!! Long time no see. I haven’t been to wattpad for the longest time… 10th grade is more hectic that I imagined  I just finished my exam but I have my records to complete and another exam this Saturday…. Btw how r you?? Jobs goin good??

strawberheecake

@saikripa123 Hi! Omg yes, it's been so long since we last caught up! I defitnitely hear you. I remember just how hectic our academic life gets year after year. I hope all your exams went well!!
            
            My job has been going well! I'm starting to take on more responsibilities which is always a good sign. RIght now, I'm entering another busy season where, between the months of January-April, I'll be working 55+ hour weeks. It's draining, but in the industry I work in, we work hard for the first 4 months of the year, and then we get to relax the rest of the year, so I say it's worth it.
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Chatayer

Belated Merry Christmas, wifey. Hope you got yourself something nice for the holiday. Miss you! ❤️

Chatayer

@strawberheecake Thank you, boo. I know, but that's adulting. It absolutely is! <3
            
            I see that common sense. Good for you. The US of A is horribly expensive lately lol. Thankfully I don't live there, but things cost more than they used to where I live as well. I don't really do gifting, but I overcompensate by exploring new cafes (a lot of my budget goes to that, unfortunately lmao).
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strawberheecake

@Chatayer Omg, belated Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you too, boo! I miss you so much ❤️ I know we don't chat often with our busy schedules, but it's always so fun we do get to catch up. 
            
            I spent some money on some Glossier products this new year so I'm excited to use them! I'm a huge fan of their You scent, so I'm always restocking when they have the good holiday sales haha. How about you? Any nice or fun gifts you received/bought yourself?
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Chatayer

Hey, girlie. What's up?

Chatayer

@strawberheecake Goodness, me too, although I'm not supposed to--it's never that healthy (says who, really?). Does the move to the  new clients mean more cash in your account?
            
            Ah, now that's the tired adult talking--you know you've turned into one when the most interesting thing about a beachfront resort(!) for you is the open bar. Please tell me you got up to some drunken shenanigans. 
            
            Hmm, I understand why you might associate being in a relationship with being sort of tied down. Why don't you try praying to the most powerful Taiwanese god there is (I unfortunately didn't look up their name before replying lol--my bad)? We must do exactly that, because the only way out is through. You'll pass it eventually. 
            
            Do these extra responsibilities come with extra money, or is the big bad white man taking advantage of us again lmao?
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strawberheecake

@Chatayer HAHA no need to worry about being nosy. I LOVE work gossip. At the team level, there were some major changes for me personally because both my senior and manager either transitioned to a different role or left the firm, so one of the other managers moved me to their clients. That itself has been a big change. But at the firm-level, we merged with another top accounting firm so the integration has been hectic but fun. 
            
            We had our firm party at a beachfront resort! Very similar to last year. I think my favorite part was the open bar, LOL. As for the trip, we just flew to Arizona for our annual training. They put us in a nice resort so that was nice! We also stayed up drinking till like 2 am every night so that was crazy, but very memorable. 
            
            Ugh, tell me about it! Many of my friends are in relationships right now, and maybe I've just gotten to used to being single, but I don't want to give up my independence just yet. So I am also very happily not mingling HAHA. Also, I feel you on getting through this next year. I hope you do get through everything. And no matter what life throws at us, I'm confident we'll tackle it head-on and get past it! For myself, I think my biggest goal is just passing my damn CPA exam but I don't know the likelihood because I'm starting to take on more responsibilities at work, which means less time to study. Other than that, my biggest dream is also to make more money lol.
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Chatayer

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@strawberheecake No worries lol. I'm getting rather busy irl myself. I hope they haven't been particularly bad for you. What were they though (look at me being a nosy little shit)? 
            
            Perfect. How was the party? Where are they taking you? 
            
            Single pringle but happily not willing to mingle. I just want to get to the next year without suffering a mental breakdown uwu. My dream, though, is more money. Hopefully, some rich person takes pity on me and proposes marriage. What are yours?
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strawberheecake

Hello, Dalgis!! This is long overdue but—OMG. I had the night of my life at the Enhypen concert three weeks ago (crazy to think it's already been that long!). To be honest, the main reason why I haven't really talked about it yet (on here, anyway) is because PCD has been hitting me so hard this time around. 
          
          I got my very first floor seat experience, and the entire night was truly magical. My seat was right by the extended stage, so it was so surreal seeing all the members up close—especially when Jake invited us over to the barricade. LA was the only stop with seated floor, so I didn't think I'd get any closer, but he invited us up for the encore set and I will never forget that night. (I also don't know how I'll hold up at TXT's concert next week with it also being at BMO Stadium. I might cry a little just being reminded of Enhypen, but that's a story for another time.)
          
          I posted some of my favorite pics and videos on my Instagram page if any of y'all wanted to see! My IG username is the same as my Wattapd (@/strawberheecake). It's also linked in my bio  ^.^
          
          Moving forward, I definitely got some good motivation to continue writing the OT7 x reader fic I've been drafting up. It's a slow progress as I'm still working full-time and back on the study grind for my big career-specific license. So, if I'm being honest, it's taking me quite a while to even get through chapter 1. But I'm slowly chipping away at it, and hopefully, I can share the first part of it with you all soon ❤️

Zahraaaaaaaaaa11

@strawberheecake Lmao i can imagine! yeah me too :(
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strawberheecake

@Zahraaaaaaaaaa11 Ahhh thank you!! I honestly thank my lucky stars each time I win the ticketing war. I really hope all Engenes get to experience Enhypen's concert at least once in their lifetime ❤️
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strawberheecake

@jung_04_won Ah yes! It was the best concert I've ever been to and I can't wait to see them again in the future ❤️I'm hoping all Engenes will get to experience Enhypen's concert at least once in their life—it's truly unforgettable!
            
            Hehe I can't wait to share it with you! I just finished drafting Chapter 2 today and am working on brainstorming Chapter 3. I think this fic will be on the shorter side—definitely not as long as my Fate Bound series. But, hopefully, that means I can publish it sooner. I actually started developing another idea for another OT7 fic yesterday so I'm eager to get started on that one too, hehe.
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strawberheecake

Surprise, Dalgis! I'm officially back with a new fic. It's the Sungwon fic that I've been promising for a while now! 
          
          It ended up being a lot longer than I had anticipated, so I published it as its own short story. You can find it in the 'EN-' reading list on my profile. It's titled "you belong to the flowers (but my heart belongs to you". 
          
          It's my first historical fic, so hopefully I did the time period some justice. Can't wait for y'all to read it! Lmk what you think. 
          
          I love you all so much! ❤️

jung_04_won

@strawberheecake OH MAH GAHHHHHDDD thank uuuu i was waitinggg and ik im not gonna be dissapointed cuz i never wassssssssssssssssssss
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Sodafizzzzzzzz

@strawberheecake aaaa tysm, love you're spoiling us too much
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