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PLEASE STAYYYYYY 
          I NEEED YOU OH GAWD
          DONT TAKE
          THESE BEAUTIFUL THINGS 
          THAT I GYATTTTT!!!

Anyone who has already had their golden birthday would understand this, currently I’m 15 (almost 16) and apparently my golden birthday would have been when I was 13, I’m starting to understand this logic. At this time everything was going great I was in 8th grade and I was dating someone who actually cared about me, someone who cared more than themselves and I feel bad because I know their struggling, like I like seeing their posts and seeing how much they’ve grown since I last saw them (August 2023). We separated from then on and it was hard to ever make arrangements to see each other, sadly that never happened and I feel guilty because of the things I said and I know they don’t think of me that way, but sometimes it feels like I’m the reason I couldn’t give them a better life when with me. I felt like I was holding them back a lot from meeting new people and developing new relationships. 
          Now to say this, we were dumb teens, for sure and we did a lot of dumb things we probably shouldn’t have but that dosen’t take away the fact they gave me the best year of my life,
          Go lucky 13!

Hey btw if anyone wants to talk to me on snap my new user is @chey_beans :D

My mom just ordered a flat of strawberries for the fundraiser at my school I’m so excited, they’re Florida grown!

Hey I know I haven’t talked much but I just had a sleepover with an IRL friend of mine on here and I wanted everyone to know that I’m 101 pounds today and I’m 14 pounds till my goal weight and I’m so happy because I’ve finally been allowed to ride my bike around my house and walk my dogs, and my birthday is coming up so I think I’m gonna make a celebration to saying F U to  an0rex!a and diet culture of course, because I’m not perfect and food is just food, it’s energy and there’s nothing wrong with eating when your hungry. I also no longer have to drink Ensure complete since now I rely on Ensure Max Protein and then I also eats nuts and seeds!

I’ve feel like I’ve fallen behind a lot on updates but I just don’t talk much, I don’t want to talk much but a couple of different emotions are still stirred in my mind. I had a strange dream that I was still together with another person who I won’t name for privacy reasons (starts with an X) I really regret not being able to stay in touch with them but I want them to know that, our lives are changing constantly, we’re human after all and this feels strange writing this at 6:10 am on a Monday morning but I know they’re struggling with what I’m struggling with, I have “ana” which if you know and I know is where you don’t eat as much as you use to and you start to use it to cope with your mental health, which I should really start getting back into age regression but I’m worried my parents would catch me. I’m almost 16 for christ, but I’m almost there and I’m not stopping now. I’m currently 91.4 lbs and at my lowest was 82.2 lbs so I want everyone to know that I am doing better, I haven’t dated anyone or anything I’m just worried my mental health will mix in with dating another person but I’ll let you know if anything happens ig. I also want to remind that other person which if reading this will understand, that I take Ensure Complete and I eat dessert nearly every day (whether that’s animal cookies, pudding, ice cream, chocolate milk, low fat ice cream sandwiches, fruit, nuts, etc) but yeah! I’m doing much better now, I’m also seeing a psychiatrist, and I’ve been doing really good in school. I probably won’t talk much about the situation but I just want that other person to know that I’m doing better since I last heard from them and I hope their also doing better, also your almost well I won’t say but this may!! Your almost there and you got this, don’t let food get the best of you and find true happiness, as always love you all and thank you for reading <3

Alright so my parents have been really worried about my weight recently as I have dropped below 95 and I’m supposed to be at least 115 lbs and so I’ve been trying to recover what I need some insights on what would be good for me to eat thank you!!

Oh my gosh, so I’m bi and I have been for a while now but I’m kinda nervous so I wanted to type it out. I’m pretty sure I have a crush on this guy in my class, and I’m not gonna say his name obv but I think he’s really cute and my friend keeps picking on me for it (Ori if you didn’t know) and this morning I decided to email him on our school accounts saying that I wanted to talk with him sometime and that I think he’s a really cool guy, and said that he did really good in our gym class

I just applied to the local no kill animal shelter in my town I’m excited to see what they’ll say!

TW : possible Anor3x!a 
          
          Is it bad that this entire summer I have 
          basically dieted and my parents say I lost too much weight but I feel and look healthy in my opinion, but they said I looked fine before but I didn’t want to cause them to have to buy new pants for me because my other ones were getting tight on me, and my mom says if I’m not careful I can end up like my brothers (both overweight) but I’m always scared of eating more or the same around other people and they got on to me because I refused to eat pizza and opted to eat something else, I still felt horrible that night and couldn’t sleep. It’s all because if I’m tight in my clothes than I want to loose weight it’s a sensory thing too I hate when jeans dig in to my stomach I constantly look around and fear others were staring I’m gonna be in a fitness and wellness class this year and I want to be well prepared and I fear of eating food like that again and what it could do to my already good body now..