rii

is it weird to feel kinda icky when people try to shimmy their way into your life by liking the things you like 
          i feel like such an icky gatekeeper, but like i want people to like things because they like them not because i like them
          it's especially important to me because i value the things i like so much, and i dont want others to dumb it down to something they can use as a shortcut into my life

when i post myself on my story and the person whose stories i even liked of her talking about her STINKY BOYFRIEND doesn't like the post but all the cool hobby maxing silly people like my post that's how i know im winning it (except im rocking choppy bangs and a dream)

crap i feel so uneducated because a lot of phrases mean something else that i literally dont mean i could say some random word and it could have some racist or other hatecrime backstory like guys PLEASE I DIDN'T KNOW>???? 
          good thing ill never be famous beacuse if i was id say like "im baja blasting" one day and get canceled

not to be having unsilly talk on main but we can't just say "ohhh i haaate vtubers.. except for these people i've seen because i actually take the chance to watch them "
          not saying ya have to like vtubers,, but i don't get going out of your way to show hatred online towards them without knowing what they're about, ya know?

now i hate to be a mood killer but i can't just keep laughing at myself when it lowk goes too far likeee

ok more info on that one girl like she's friends with most of the people i interact with but when i try to be close with her and compliment her she's like "oh... thanks!" I FEEL LIKE A FANNNNNNN

me to that girl who is friends with everybody that's cool and nerdy but i try get closer with her and she lowk ignores me/ keeps her distance from me
          JUST SAY IM NOT COOL AND A VTUBER FAN FREAK BRO URUUGHHHH just say you hate me brooo i look like a fan btw

im fine with people stalking the not usually stalked things, pinterest, spotify, roblox, steam, BUT if SOMEONE i knew irl found my WP/ao3 without me telling them verbally........ woah...

how do i look more gay because i dont want guys in my dms i want girls in my dms pleeease please pleeeease

i start panicking when im watching an art compilation reel/tiktok and i see shu yamino like WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE HE'S IN THE WALLLLS AHHHHHH