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To all my new followers that enjoy my writing:
          
          This is a dead account. I don't write on here anymore, so if you want to read more of my works feel free to check out my tumblr: beezlebubs-hamburgerplushie or gummywormcoffin
          
          On tik tok I post drawings. you can find me under the name shiggys.childhoodtrauma or gummywormcoffin
          
          On Instagram I also post my drawings, alongside memes. It's gummywormcoffin :)
          
          My Twitter is the exact same as my Instagram.
          
          I've had this account since 2017, but I think it's time to leave my old cringey middle school years behind. Thank you all for being apart of my life.

omfg you’re that one person that actually said happy birthday to me in 2017!! 
          LMAO thanks you much btw, i hope you’re doing well. I really like your profile- 

I have so many ideas and no talent to execute them in the way I want to-

I honestly think that in a cartoon or anime I'd be that "Villian with a sad backstory" trope and it doesn't sound that bad tbh
          
          Who knows maybe the cute protagonist will fall for me and we'll fight in the rain and there's a lot of homoerotic subtext everywhere

Part of me thinks I'm missing out when girls talk about their periods. (I'm a pre-T trans guy I still suffer from them). Cus my periods never result in cramps or moodswings, and when they joke about periods I'm just kinda like: "So I was never a girl from the start what- what happens to you guys?"
          
          I legit remember when my ex girlfriend told me what her periods were like: I was horrified. Like girls have to go through that??? My God, I'm so sorry.

I long to be this soft boy who lives in a cottage in the woods and has forest animal friends and a little mushroom hat that grows fruits and veggies and dances in fields of wildflowers in a long flowing dress and sun hat.
          
          But then I also want to throw tampons at cops and skateboard down city streets with my punk boyfriend, staying up until dawn under starless skies while drinking energy drinks and planning to overthrow the government.

I hate living in Oklahoma in the middle of the woods in a small town that they never show on the news until it's Tornado season, but when a family of raccoons shows up and eats the cat food from your front porch I really appreciate my home lol

There's times I look at myself and wonder if I'm asexual. Like tbh sex kinda grosses me out ngl but in my head I'm like "Mm yes sexual relationship" but irl I'm just kinda like
          
          "Ew."

Oh to be a cat in love and touch our noses together and make little hearts from our tails like in the cartoons

My urge to start a webcomic is so strong but my art style stops me because 
          
          1.) I need to practice anatomy more first
          
          2.) I need to better my realism
          
          3.) My artstyle is so cartoony that I doubt it would look good on a serious webcomic