Nico

i have no clue how long the next chapter of Fates Entwined had been on wip lmao

i hit the writing wall again yeet

Her instincts were dead set on one thing. 
          
          「Save them. Protect them.」
          
          「No matter the cost.」
          
          The little blonde readjusts her grip on the crimson scythe, realigning their disrupted resonance waves, and swings with all her might. It was as though  an unseen glass barrier shattered into pieces. Her eyes were focused, almost giving an ominous azure glow, and the world around her lost its spectrum of colors. The ticks of time stopped. One step forward, and the young girl blazed through forces unseen.

nico: i need to be more diligent in writing !
          
          also nico: arknights, code vein, resonant ops, june art piece hahaha

So, I've been doing a lot of thinking (in times that I am not frustrated with this), and...
          
          I'm leaning heavily on the idea of completely rebooting GE: Fates Entwined to save my sanity, instead of beating myself up over my incapability to continue writing it with the direction it has gone.
          
          I know no one would care, as no one really reads it anyway, but I don't intend to take down the published piece as of now for those who would eventually wound up to it and decide to read that shitshow for kicks.
          
          BUT
          
          I'm going to keep the rebooted version as a draft for the time being, until I get my writing mojo back in its regular pace. I am currently swamped with gacha, Code Vein, art and life itself, but I hope to get everything in order during this quarantine.
          
          The rebooted FE would not be too different from the current one, but I have decided to scrap some concepts and scenarios for my ease. But hey, I'm not publishing the rebooted version any time soon so what's the point of saying all these...

i also found an unfinished fic about modern au soma getting into a fight and being suspended from school 
          
          i don't remember exactly WHAT did he get in a fight for but hahah i was full of ideas back when i was so busy screwing up college

i unearthed a pretty old fanfic about spy au soma and yuka going on an assignment as newly weds and wow it was only slightly bad, except it turned shit on the latter parts and i never really finished it
          
          fun times nico

Reading through GE: Fates Entwined often and I find a number of scenes I want to rework because: a) they're dumb and they make me cringe, b) I wasn't high enough on crack when I wrote them (no pls i dont rly do drugs).
          
          But then rewriting them (and all of FE by extension) would require going through another roller coaster of stress for both me and the characters and idk sometimes i sit down and contemplate all the things ive written wondering how and why it became so complicated that i so easily hit a dead end, that it becomes frustrating that i cant even write anything at all simply because i myself have no idea what the heck is going on anyway
          
          i only wanted to write to tell the tale of the dumbass horny bitch yuka ichinose and her lifetime of thirsting over soma schicksal including the dumb things she does in the name of love
          
          but now this series is spiraling uncontrolled like the rest of my life but i dont want it to come to a stupid stop just like this because i also want to tell the tale of the Dumb Bitch II Weiss Pennywort and the dumber things she does for Tiddy Window Hugo Pennywort
          
          how did this become so stressful i didnt ask for this
          it was fun when people were reading it and leaving comments bec it motivates us content creators you know??? but now no one finds any more interest in it because they dont understand whats going on either and so do i 
          
          dammit i just want to find the fun in writing again

i want to write i want to write i want to write i want to write i want to write i want to write i want to write i want to write i want to write i want to write i want to write i want to write i want to write i want to write i want to write i want to write i want to write i want to write i want to write i want to write i want to write

                                   GOD EATER 3
          
                                  M E M E N T O • V I V E R E
          
                      “Memento vivere, quia memento mori.”
          
                  [ Live the moment, remember that you will die. ]