strxwberry_koushi

hi hello! long time no talk, how's everyone doing?

strxwberry_koushi

hello my loves, long time no  see! (more like talk lmao-) how are y'all? i missed being here!
          i'm fortunately doing slightly better now, and i have a few ideas for writing.
          but since my finals are going on, i can't :(
          which is why, i'll start working on my fanfics after the 18th of feb.
          the only news i hate to break to y'all is, i'm not working on shadow for now.
          i'm sorry, i'm facing major writers block for that fic and i have no idea how to take it further without totally despising my own writing. so for now, no shadow. sorry again.
          but there's also good news!
          i'm working on a small surprise for all of you, to thank you for your support and love. its not a bts fanfic, so i'm sorry for that.
          (hint: its a haikyuu fanfic!)
          if you're not into haikyuu then i apologize. but i still hope you'll like this one! its based off a plot i'm very proud of.
          that's all!
          thanks for sparing your time here and supporting me, i love you! <3

strxwberry_koushi

hello!!
          although i'm not active here much rn, i just wanted to drop by and thank y'all. 
          its new year's eve already, funny how this year passed so quickly right? it felt just like one second we were celebrating 2020 and now we're going to celebrate 2021.
          this year was a turning point for all of us, we were separated from friends and family and we all just wanted covid to be over. i'm pretty sure we still do.
          and even while staying in our homes we all managed to make it through. we all learned so many new things, branched out and met new people online. i made so many friends here on wp too and i'm so grateful for them.
          we all went through our moments, we all had hard times. but in the end we made it and here we are.
          this year, i'm most thankful to BTS and my friends. i won't have been able to make it if it weren't for them.
          i'm thankful for all my readers, those who supported me from the start and kept up with me.
          so, even though this year definitely wasn't the best, i'm glad it happened. 
          so many good events took place for all of us. sure, staying at home wasn't what we all wanted, but it definitely taught us something.
          i think i already said a lot lol, so i end it here now.
          happy new year 2021! may this new year bring you much deserved happiness and success. lets hope 2021 also takes away corona lol. lets all be happy together this new year and enjoy to the fullest!
          that's all, i love you guys so much. thank you for giving me a chance and reading this much lol. stay safe and enjoy your new year!

strxwberry_koushi

@upskyedown haha i'm sorry i'm replying almost 2 months later i feel so bad i literally just logged in and i had more than 500 notifs-
            everybody had their bad times last year, it was one hell of a time to be alive in lol. the frontliners definitely deserve all the praise, all of us should learn from them. also, i hope you're fine now. i'm sure that whatever problems may be going on with you get over soon, i'm here to talk if you want ofc <3
            i really didn't want you to give your account up! so many writers i know stop writing and leave their account and it always leaves me heartbroken.
            i'm glad we both share the same reactions! its nice to know that i don't feel like a creep lol. and its okay! reply whenever you have time. i'm sorry i replied late, i took a break from everything. 
            also yeah, i hope we get closer this year and make new memories <3
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upskyedown

@strxwberry_koushi wow, reading this made me feel happy that you can feel comfortable to confide in me. 2020 was just... i can't even form coherent sentences to describe how screwed up it was but i'll agree that it was necessary, without 2020 there won't be 2021 or a future better year even though nobody deserved the hardship they went through. it was a rollercoaster for me, i made a lot of new friends, i cried because of my some problems going on, i paced around my room at night without sleeping a wink thinking about my results and how it'll affect my future... what will people think of me? how will i face my parents? sometimes i got relieved, sometimes the worries got worse but i still pushed through, i'm we all pushed through and made it out alive. definitely seconded, the frontliners are the reason why things are starting to get better and living in worse conditions than us they had more hope than some of us did which i respect a lot. i'm so glad that you replied to me, i was about to give up this account completely- i didn't know what to do everything was incomplete. i'm so glad to know that i could make you smile, it means a whole lot to me. your notifications made me feel excited too, at times i felt like should i reply asap or will i look like a no lifer? i do hope the same, i look forward to knowing you better and maybe get more informal you know what i mean right? let's make good memories with the hope of a better year! ♡♡♡
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strxwberry_koushi

@upskyedown this year was truly screwed up, if i say so myself. because the last four months weren't really all that fun lol. i really thought the world would end this year and we might have to ask elon musk to sit us all in a spaceship and send us to the moon or some far away planet and being very frank, i think i would have liked that better. but i still think this year didn't entirely go to waste. it at least contributed to us becoming better people somehow. we were made to face with the harsh reality of life. and i think all of us will be eternally grateful to the frontliners, we wouldn't be anywhere without them. they really were our superheroes for this year and it also made us realize how some people who seem so insignificant can impact our lives at such a scale. its okay, ramble on lol. i like it, it takes away a part of my loneliness :D i'm so glad i replied to you too! that announcement you made about folklore right? haha, good memories. i loved your namjoon fanfic and you were also my first friend here. i honestly thought my story would flop but it was because of you and some other people that i actually felt confident about my story. i'm really glad to know that i have helped you, in any way. 2020 made me feel like i forgot how to smile but i always smiled when a notification that you replied to me popped up, so thank you for that. talks like these make my day better and i have something to look forward to, other than my monotonous everyday routine. thank you for supporting me from the start, for making me smile and for always being a good friend. i hope that this new year, we can make more happy memories together and get to know each other better, while healing and moving on from the disaster called 2020. i love you too! <3
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strxwberry_koushi

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y'all will probably hate me after this announcement.
          so i am unpublishing Shadow as i have to make some changes but most importantly, i'm not ready to continue it rn. i'm not in the mental condition at all and i know this would sound really mean of me but so much shit has been happening and i have zero motivation to update.
          but good news is, i'm not deleting it!
          after i get back in the condition to actually update regularly, i promise i will publish it again.
          an also, i'll keep chapters pre-written!
          i hope you guys understand my problem and again i'm so sorry, i know i'm the most unorganized person ever.
          but thank you so much for the overwhelming support! i don't deserve y'all :( 
          until then, bye guys! stay safe and hydrated and remember i love you always.
          (i haven't replied to some people and if that someone is you don't worry i'll reply soon hehe sorry)

upskyedown

@strxwberry_koushi fr, if it helps you feel lighter then it's not bad! you can cry away and then move on from it, such an effective way to get over your problems. i really hope this doesn't sound unhealthy- oh gosh. nothing beats physical classes, the experience is very different. not only the experience, it's not efficient either. i would never want my juniors to not have a graduation ceremony, it's so painful. not even a freshers fest... ah well, i'm not the only one so it's alright. i hope everything sorts out soon, it's okay to feel bored that's natural but it's awful when one doesn't have a way of solving it. i'd love to talk but idk what to talk about... it's like i have everything and nothing to talk about at the same time. i'm the same, i barely use it anymore- i only have it installed to converse with you and a few other people otherwise this app would be long gone from my overflowing with storage phone. but anyway, i'll always be available for you so that's not a worry!
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strxwberry_koushi

@upskyedown it just hits different to play an emotional song or hum it while being locked up and crying and also some people can relate lol. my school life...ain't really jam packed. at this point school has gotten so boring i've pretty much stopped thinking about it. so drop by in my pms anytime! i'd be more than happy to talk. but my replies might be late, i hardly ever check my wp nowadays. i'll be sure to text you if i ever feel down :D
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upskyedown

@strxwberry_koushi that's true, i might look weird too agreeing with you but i like crying as well. venting to someone doesn't always solve it, crying actually makes me feel like i've paid enough attention and emotion to the situation. i'll be sure haha but i don't wanna disturb you since school life is very jam packed, you know my offer is open for you as well- if you wanna talk to anyone i'm just a text away. i'm glad i could make you feel happy lol ♡♡♡
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strxwberry_koushi

Hello!
          I'm sorry I haven't been active. I don't get time nowadays at all, our school is being absolutely merciless. Plus, I just wanna say it here because I don't know how else I'm supposed to rant, but I hate my parents : D
          That might sound like I'm being a little too harsh, but trust me, you don't wanna know why. Also, they are the second half of the reason why I can't update and I hate it. I'm sorry y'all.

upskyedown

@strxwberry_koushi not a problem! take care, hope this new year makes things for you! i love you too <333
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strxwberry_koushi

@upskyedown its okay :D and thanks a lot. readers like you always keep up my motivation to live lol. thank you so much! i love you <3
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upskyedown

@goldenjenjen hey hey, i'm sorry being late but i do really hope things get better for you, i really do. please don't worry about updating, you should look after yourself first. self importance, always. i don't know what's going on but stay strong. if you want to talk about literally anything then i'm here, i'll always be here for you. see you soon! 
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strxwberry_koushi

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well well well, fuck my life :D
          my dad is covid positive and now i have absolutely no idea what i should do, i'm just really hoping he gets well soon.