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Im confused. The last two months ive been the happiest ive ever been. Too much. I have cried about two times in that time, one being happy tears. Now all of a sudden im depressed, thinking about suicide, and i dont want help. Im so confused on as to what i can do to help myself. Ive trued everything i know. Ex: journaling, talking to a councillor, talking to friends, self harm, ive even tried to switch which parent i live with. Now i have a partner who is going through their own problems and doesn't understand that i love them or understand that they are cared for, and normally it would be fine. But im just confused on everything now. I was convinced i had everything and i didnt need to do anything more or i was happy, but now all i want to do is stop existing. I have no idea what is causing it anymore, either.