oh man..i miss this. i miss those sleepless nights when i would read my favorite fanfics even tho my eyes were hurting like hell, i miss those days when i would write 4 chapters a day and had so much motivation and ideas that my fingers couldnt stop typing.. im pretty sure thats nostalgia speaking for me? i dont know..it just makes me so sad and anxious. wattpad has been a huge part of my life. before this account, i had another one that i created maybe in 2017?? gosh, thats almost 6 years ago.. i remember being so happy that my book hit 50K reads haha. i was a kid writing her silly little fanfic about this dude named peter parker thinking she would be famous one day. so much has changed since. i would say that years 2019-2021 were the best years of my life and i would do anything to go back. im actually crying writing this lmao it just makes me so emotional cuz i have a huge fear of growing up, its gotten so bad that the fear turns into anxiety and i just dont know how to deal with it cuz its not like i can do anything about it, we cant stop time..i think the reason why are people feeling like this is because time passes so much quicker since quarantine, have you noticed? idk what im even trying to say here but i just felt like i needed to get it out of my chest somehow. im turning 17 next year and i just want to be the kid that was just enjoying life without caring about her body, other people, her future and without overthinking every damn thing..i honestly love wattpad so much, i know its different app than in was a few years ago, now its all ads and subscription but those memories and friends i made on this app is something i wont forget tho..ohhhh this post is so cringeee lol im truly sorry to anyone reading this, if anyone ever will
