stylezxsilvermoon

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stylezxsilvermoon

unfortunately I've been thinking about taking my fics down, I just have been getting no engagement lately and ik I haven't updated in a while but with everything going on I just feel so ??? but for months I've felt like this, I barely get any comments anymore except for a few people which I appreciate but I really just feel like if I didn't post anymore/deleted my fics no one would come up out of the woodwork and complain abt it therefore I have no audience. which I've been working for years to curate and pander to people and it feels like it's all, for nothing. I still love writing but I unfortunately it's heading in the direction where I think I won't be sharing it anymore. not exactly sure though but maybe I'll come back to this.

stylezxsilvermoon

PART OF MY TUMBLR RANT ! (only part because only this applies on here)
          
          
          
          i feel like i write so diff from everyone else, like when i post something i want it to convey something in you, i want you to feel moved and feel appreciated and loved and happy reading something i make, and i dont even know if my writing is built to do that and i may be just dicksucking myself. idek. i dont wanna post for just notes i wanna talk about what i write with other people and for people to ask me why i chose what i did and why i wrote my stories and how it made them feel or what they like about it, and i just feel like im pandering to an audience that doesn't exist everytime i idek, write author's notes, ask for feedback, talk to people about what they like, i've always taken myself way too seriously and i just feel like modern fandom is so. so.
          
          like i grew up reading 2010's fanfics and thats the kinda vibe i like creating, like 2012 chronically online wattpad stories, with long chapters and chatty authors and a bunch of funny comments, i just idk.