su1cide_Idol

Hello everyone. 
          	Goddess it feels weird to be online here. 
          	Im sorry is as gone for so long. Probably won't be online a lot. Sorry guys but Wattpad is low-key in my past. 
          	I love you especially you @GimAgim
          	I am sorry that I can't awnser to all your messages its crazy to me that you are still writing them. I love you so much I don't deserve you really. You are the best. 
          	
          	I am good. I have a plan for my future and I started liking myself more. Healing takes time but it works. 
          	Love yourself everyone it's worth the work.

GimAgim

Oof, I'm really really sorry to hear that. I kinda get what you mean, although probably not fully since it's different for all of us anyway. But the heat definitely makes headaches and pain in general worse somehow. And I also get that eating in this heat is hard. Please try to at least eat a tiny bit if possible and I hope it'll get better again soon.
          	  I definitely respect your decision a lot and I'm happy to hear that you love being vegan. It definitely sounds hard, but good luck with it and you're doing well. The experimenting in trying to make new foods sounds fun. Anything you made/found recently that was extremely good?
          	  
          	  I think it depends on how you see it, but if you think it's great then it is. Very understandable that art uni seems scary, but yes, you can do it! I believe in you and it's good that you think you can do it too. Oof, that doesn't sound nice. I hope it'll be worth it and won't get too much though.
          	  
          	  I love you too! Thank you. Life's an up and down as always and I'm trying to somehow get through and find ways for things to work somehow. But yeah, I wish you the best and good luck for everything! <3
          	  
          	  Love Gim
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GimAgim

@su1cide_Idol  I only saw this now since I haven't really checked my wp notifications in over a year now and I'm scared to click on it now tbh^^" But yeah, because of this I have to look everywhere myself to see things. But I'm so happy to hear something from you again! I actually wanted to text you here again so many times now but didn't get to do it :/. But now I'm here to answer :D.
          	  Don't be sorry. I wouldn't say we lost contact, we're just living separate lives and we rarely text anymore, but it's okay. I'm always happy to hear from you!
          	  
          	  I'm so happy to hear that you're well! Ohh, that's cool and naww, cute! I'm sorry to hear that he struggles like this, but I definitely hope he likes you and I wish you lots of luck for this! I bet with just being there for him you already do so much. Naww, that's nice.
          	  Yes, that's true.
          	  
          	  Oh no. That really doesn't sound good :(. Please try to take care as well as possible. Hopefully the smoking won't turn into something worse as well :/. *hug*
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su1cide_Idol

@GimAgim Heyy, I'm so sorry for losing contact with you. I just read almost all of your messages again and they are so adorable.
          	  
          	  I am really well. I will start uni soon and also I am currently talking with a boy. He is so cute but idk if he likes me cuz he has problems with commitment and trust. Lots of mental disorders too. Idk if i can be what he needs.
          	  well he is really tall and pretty and he understands so many parts of the things i say. If we wont have something romantic, he will be a great friend anyways.
          	  
          	  I am getting too drunk though. I just had a bad weekend with puking all night and well I still love drinking. I also started smoking but I think that it's more like a habit that I can lose anytime because I just randomly stopped for like six weeks at least every two months and i dont really need it.
          	  
          	  My migraines are getting worse in the heat. I'm trying to eat at all but eating in this heat is so hard. But i have decided to go vegan now, i try so hard to be a good human itscrazy. I don't buy most of the drinks and brands I liked anymore because of animal testing and abuse. But well I love being vegan.. It's so fun to experiment in trying to make new foods.
          	  
          	  I also turned 18 this year, which I guess is great. I'm scared of art uni but I think I can do it. Only the drive to the capital every day will be dreadfully exhausting.
          	  
          	  I love you and hope you are well.
          	  
          	  Love Lian.
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su1cide_Idol

Hello everyone. 
          Goddess it feels weird to be online here. 
          Im sorry is as gone for so long. Probably won't be online a lot. Sorry guys but Wattpad is low-key in my past. 
          I love you especially you @GimAgim
          I am sorry that I can't awnser to all your messages its crazy to me that you are still writing them. I love you so much I don't deserve you really. You are the best. 
          
          I am good. I have a plan for my future and I started liking myself more. Healing takes time but it works. 
          Love yourself everyone it's worth the work.

GimAgim

Oof, I'm really really sorry to hear that. I kinda get what you mean, although probably not fully since it's different for all of us anyway. But the heat definitely makes headaches and pain in general worse somehow. And I also get that eating in this heat is hard. Please try to at least eat a tiny bit if possible and I hope it'll get better again soon.
            I definitely respect your decision a lot and I'm happy to hear that you love being vegan. It definitely sounds hard, but good luck with it and you're doing well. The experimenting in trying to make new foods sounds fun. Anything you made/found recently that was extremely good?
            
            I think it depends on how you see it, but if you think it's great then it is. Very understandable that art uni seems scary, but yes, you can do it! I believe in you and it's good that you think you can do it too. Oof, that doesn't sound nice. I hope it'll be worth it and won't get too much though.
            
            I love you too! Thank you. Life's an up and down as always and I'm trying to somehow get through and find ways for things to work somehow. But yeah, I wish you the best and good luck for everything! <3
            
            Love Gim
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GimAgim

@su1cide_Idol  I only saw this now since I haven't really checked my wp notifications in over a year now and I'm scared to click on it now tbh^^" But yeah, because of this I have to look everywhere myself to see things. But I'm so happy to hear something from you again! I actually wanted to text you here again so many times now but didn't get to do it :/. But now I'm here to answer :D.
            Don't be sorry. I wouldn't say we lost contact, we're just living separate lives and we rarely text anymore, but it's okay. I'm always happy to hear from you!
            
            I'm so happy to hear that you're well! Ohh, that's cool and naww, cute! I'm sorry to hear that he struggles like this, but I definitely hope he likes you and I wish you lots of luck for this! I bet with just being there for him you already do so much. Naww, that's nice.
            Yes, that's true.
            
            Oh no. That really doesn't sound good :(. Please try to take care as well as possible. Hopefully the smoking won't turn into something worse as well :/. *hug*
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su1cide_Idol

@GimAgim Heyy, I'm so sorry for losing contact with you. I just read almost all of your messages again and they are so adorable.
            
            I am really well. I will start uni soon and also I am currently talking with a boy. He is so cute but idk if he likes me cuz he has problems with commitment and trust. Lots of mental disorders too. Idk if i can be what he needs.
            well he is really tall and pretty and he understands so many parts of the things i say. If we wont have something romantic, he will be a great friend anyways.
            
            I am getting too drunk though. I just had a bad weekend with puking all night and well I still love drinking. I also started smoking but I think that it's more like a habit that I can lose anytime because I just randomly stopped for like six weeks at least every two months and i dont really need it.
            
            My migraines are getting worse in the heat. I'm trying to eat at all but eating in this heat is so hard. But i have decided to go vegan now, i try so hard to be a good human itscrazy. I don't buy most of the drinks and brands I liked anymore because of animal testing and abuse. But well I love being vegan.. It's so fun to experiment in trying to make new foods.
            
            I also turned 18 this year, which I guess is great. I'm scared of art uni but I think I can do it. Only the drive to the capital every day will be dreadfully exhausting.
            
            I love you and hope you are well.
            
            Love Lian.
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GimAgim

Good morning, rain drop!
          The sun seems to be up, the sky is quite blue and I don't know if the birds are chirping right now or not. I'm listening to some music while writing this. I don't know if you know tj_beastboy, but I can really recommend him.
          
          Now it's tuesday again already and I almost wanted to continue writing this message in german, lol. But whatever, how are you? I really would love to know and I hope that I'll find it out again one day when you're here for a bit again. Please don't stress yourself though! Not for me at least. And I hope today will at least be okay for you or as okay as possible.
          
          I'm sending you tons of love. Today in the shape of the 16th door of the advent calendar. In this door are magical headphones that automatically know which songs you like and need to hear at any moment that you wear them. I feel like that would be so helpful. And for the winter time they are extra warm and come in looks with reindeer, snowman's, christmas trees, snowflakes and presents.
          
          I love you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much! Take care and feel hugged tightly!<3

GimAgim

Good evening, rain drop!
          The sun has long gone down and the birds are sleeping. The day was mostly grey and cold, but I love fog so the grey part was okay.
          
          I'm sorry that I haven't texted you here the past days. The reason is a bit too private to say here, but now I'm back. I don't know if I'll still be able to do this daily, but I'll try my best and never forget that I'm still thinking about you no matter what happens and no matter if I'm texting you here or not.
          
          I really hope your week was at least okay. It's saturday again now. I hope you're getting some time for yourself every now and then because that's very important and you are important!
          
          I'm sending tons of love over again. Today in the shape of the 13th door of the advent calendar. Today we can find some toy cars in them. It's fun to play with toy cars, you don't need a license for them and they could symbolize freedom, which is good.
          
          I love you soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much! Take care and feel hugged tightly!<3

GimAgim

Good morning, rain drop!
          The sun is out and I think the birds are as well. I'm hearing some here and there, so yes that's confirmed. It kinda looked like it snowed outside around one hour ago but it actually just rained.
          
          The new week has begun and I hope you're starting as well into it as anyhow possible. I definitely wish you a great week and as little stress and bad things as possible! Please take some time for yourself, okay? That's very important. You are very important.
          
          I'm sending tons of love over to you again. Today in the shape of the 8th door of the advent calendar, which consists of any kind of fairy light with christmas decoration on it. Like, maybe christmas trees, snowflakes or something like that. I hope you know what I mean.
          
          I love you soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much! Take care and feel hugged tightly!<3

GimAgim

Good evening, rain drop!
          The sun has long gone down and the birds should be asleep by now. I don't know about the weather today, but it was very cold again. It's normal though, I'm just mentioning it because I can, haha.
          
          So it's sunday now, the end of the week. I really hope your week was at least okay overall and I also hope you ended it as well as possible. Christmas is coming closer and closer and I don't know whether I should be hyped or not, but we will see. I hope you can look forward to Christmas.
          
          I'm sending you tons of love over again. Today in the shape of the 7th door of the calendar. This door has some christmas wrapping paper behind it; in every possible color and with every possible pattern. There are many different and very pretty ones. I just wished wrapping presents was easier^^" Can you wrap presents?
          
          I love you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much! Take care and feel hugged tightly!<3

GimAgim

Good evening, rain drop!
          The sun has long gone down and the birds should be asleep by now. Today it was very cold outside again, of course, but it looked really pretty. The clouds had some nice colors – from yellow, to orange, to pink and purple.
          
          How was your day today? I hope your saturday was as nice as possible. Today is/was saint nicholas day and I hope that you got something good or that you at least didn't have any stress today.
          
          I'm sending you tons of love over again. Today in the shape of the 6th door of the advent calendar. Today you can find some new and polished boots filled with sweets. Yes, the cliche of course. But some new boots AND sweets together? Sounds like a dream to me, hehe.
          
          I love you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much! Take care and feel hugged tightly!<3

GimAgim

Good morning, rain drop!
          The sun has gone up or is it still going up? I'm not sure, because it doesn't look that bright outside yet, rather mostly grey. I also can't hear any birds. I actually can't hear much of anything right now^^"
          
          Today is friday again and I hope you'll get through this day as well as possible. And I hope you'll be able to have some relaxing time in the afternoon or evening at least. (And on the weekend too of course.) That would be very nice.
          
          I'm sending tons of love over again. Today in the shape of the 5th door of the advent calendar. Today it's filled with motivation and some crafting paper. You could use it to fold some origami figures or you could craft something different with it. Or you could also write/draw on it. It would make a pretty letter I think.
          
          I love you soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much! Take care and feel hugged tightly!<3

GimAgim

Good evening, rain drop!
          The sun has long gone down and the birds are going to sleep. Today it was quite cold outside again, but the weather wasn't too bad in general.
          
          I hope you had a day that was at least okay. Yes, I'll say that a lot now, because I really hope so. It's very important to me. I really really hope that life isn't treating you this extremely bad still.
          
          I'm sending tons of love over to you again. Today in the shape of the 4th door of the advent calendar. This door is for scented candles with christmas scents like cinnamon, gingerbread and stuff like that. I hope you like those scents.
          
          I love you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much! Take care and feel hugged tightly!<3

GimAgim

Good evening, rain drop!
          My message today will be more on the shorter side again. I'm sorry about that. The sun has gone down and the birds should be asleep by now.
          
          I hope your day wasn't bad and at least okay. That would be very nice. It's already the 3rd of December, time is flying by quickly. Soon it'll be Saint Nicholas Day. Are you looking forward to it?
          
          I'm sending tons of love over to you again. Today in the shape of the 3rd advent calendar door. What's behind it? Good question. That obviously depends, but behind this one here are tons of love :3.
          
          I love you soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much! Take care and feel hugged tightly!<3

GimAgim

Good evening, rain drop!
          The sun has long gone down and the birds are going to sleep. Today it wasn't extremely cold outside, there was even some sun from time to time. But it still was cold enough to need some warm clothes. I saw the moon today and it was very beautiful.
          
          I really hope you started into the month as well as possible and that your day was at least okay. I'm really always hoping for the best and I also hope that my hope/hoping does something, even if only in the slightest way.
          
          I'm sending tons of love over to you again. Today in the shape of the second door of the advent calendar. It always depends what kind of calendar you have but I'm imagining either a chocolate shaped star, moon, toy train etc. or something that belongs to a collection and that'll help complete the calendar in the end.
          
          I love you soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much! Take care and feel hugged tightly!<3