@countrycake All human beings have flaws, if you've done a few things wrong it's okay. Flaws are only called out because they are less common, so you noticing this right now means that you have been great. Try and think of time as more of a span of over eighty years. Try and convince yourself that in en years you won't remember this moment, even if that isn't true. This may seem odd, but try waving your hands or arms in the air. Or shaking your hands at your sides back and forth, anything of the sort. Maybe tear paper. That might help, just getting twenty sheets of paper and ripping them all in half and recycling them afterwards. And I have heard that using nail polish instead of cutting works to help. I'm sorry if this doesn't sound coherent, it's really late.
