Tavi Vampire Kitty

So how many of you want me to continue with my books?

Sleep will never come.
          Dreams will end. 
          Devils will sing.
          Angels will fall.
          I can't sleep till angels fall.
          Devils will win.
          Demons will scream.
          Angels will fall and cry.
          Tonight will be the end of time.
          I can't sleep till angels fall.
          Hell is my friend.
          Death is close.
          The devil is near.
          God is dead.
          I can't sleep till angels fall.
          When angels fall.
          Death will come.
          Too take us all away again.
          The gates of hell will finally open.
          I can't sleep till angels fall.
          Heaven has lost. 
          Hell has won.
          The fight is done. 
          It's all over now.
          I can't sleep till angels fall.
          I can't sleep till angels fall.
          My new song lyrics I'm working on

When will the pain end?
          When will the hurt stop?
          When will it all just leave?
          I'm sick of fighting.
          I'm sick of trying.
          Nothing will ever go right.
          People will leave.
          People will come.
          It's all just the end again.

Writing a new song and will be trying to work on some of my books. I've just been really depressed lately. It seems that every one who finds out that I like pet and age play all just judge me. A lot of people who I called friends left me an want nothing to do with me now.

Do you ever feel like the world would be better of without you?
          Do you ever feel like everything you do is failure?
          Do you always feel lonely even though you have friends online?
          Do you ever feel that no one cares about till they want something?
          
          See a lot of people hate me because i classify myself as a vampire. I'm into pet play and I age regress at times. I have so many mental health issues that I'm a danger to myself but I'm still alive. 
          
          I know that not a single person will read this or care but that's ok I guess. 
          
          I'm a little with no caregiver. That just means I get to screw up and no one cares. I've been in and out of mental hospitals that I lost count. 
          
          I'm so depressing that my therapist quit and walked out on a session with me. I have so many scars on my body that I can't even count them all. No they are not all from me. My mother had a very abusive boyfriend and when they got drunk I got hurt. No child pertective service did not care in the 90s. So I had a messed up child hood. 
          
          If you read this till the end. Thank You

Another day goes by. just watching people be happy with friends. sitting in Buffalo Wild Wings all alone. i know im pathetic watching everyone have fun. i always get my usual table in the corner were no one can see me. i hide my feelings from the waitress. the staff always has my table empty for no one sits there its called the freaks table. i know they are talking about me.

nothing ever good happens in my life. Too many scars to count. Too much anger to let go. Dealing with crap again. I'm sick of all the lies. I just want to be happy for one in my stupid dumb life. I'm sick of having to put on a fake smile. I don't think many people have any clue how hard it is living with 4 types of depression, ptsd, adhd, bipolar, and my favorite 8 different personalities. My life is like the song white ghost by BadFlower.

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