@sucid1alhotline
you held the love for newjeans close to your heart and you swore that your love would be infinite. that you had passion for them like no other. you did not know they would get into a raging court battle with the company that built them to what they were. now you know.
oh gosh please always remember to stay unattached. to anyone and anything. you do not need to attach your identity to a mbti analysis. you do not need to attach yourself to your zodiac sign and the stereotypes that come with it. you do not need to attach your lifestyle to the manufactured image of what girlhood is. you do not need to attach yourself to anything. oh lord. remember this. you are ever changing. your opinions your taste your life will shift everyday based on the decisions you make.
do not let your ego stop you from admitting that perhaps you were once wrong or that you are changing a view you stood your ground on. it is okay to let the wind carry you. it is okay to let the river streams flow. you are anything but a person with an identity attached to society’s labels and stereotypes. you are you and you only.
Proud to say I am able to look back and smile because what's in the past stays in the past. Shit happens and you learn to heal. Next time life attempts to throw shit at you? You have learnt to dodge.
I think I understand now. I used to attempt internalize the "idgaf" mindset. I tell people I don't give a fuck. I act like I don't. But I know I still feel like the small girl I was once trying to run away from. It's not that I don't give a fuck about her getting a girlfriend or him being beaten up by a man. Lol. It's simply not my business, and I won't indulge in mindless conversations revolving around the life of a person I have only exchanged minimal sentences with. I get to live once. And I want to live it by surrounding myself with people I love, my interests, confidence, positivity, and unlimited joy, abundance, love, and blessings. Nothing will get in my way.
I think I understand now. I used to attempt internalize the "idgaf" mindset. I tell people I don't give a fuck. I act like I don't. But I know I still feel like the small girl I was once trying to run away from. It's not that I don't give a fuck about her getting a girlfriend or him being beaten up by a man. Lol. It's simply not my business, and I won't indulge in mindless conversations revolving around the life of a person I have only exchanged minimal sentences with. I get to live once. And I want to live it by surrounding myself with people I love, my interests, confidence, and possibility. Nothing will get in my way.
This doesn't make sense, you would say. But it does. When my priority is to excel in my academics and not to not look lonely, I will sit in the classroom revising, regardless of whether that might be uncomfortable. If not looking lonely was my first priority, I would have did something else, given up on studying. But it is not. So I sit, and I revise. And it's a damn good feeling I'm telling you. Self improvement does wonders for your confidence. As you know you are moving towards building a better lifestyle, you will gain trust in yourself. And the trust reflects outwardly.
Back when I was depressed (for what?) and hating the world for it. Pointing middle fingers everywhere in hopes it will diminish my anger. Idk.
@sucid1alhotline omg my emo depressed loner era U willl not b missed but Im glad u were here ******************************************************************************************************************
@sucid1alhotline YOUUU GOT THIS BABY. focus on yourself only. don't b anxious over your social life when u still got a whole life ahead of you WHICH WILL BE FUCKED IF YOU DON'T LOCK TF IN AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Today I’m really happy. No unnecessary socialising, no anxiety over interactions, just a quiet normal day with the people I love.
Fucking bluepools
