I hate myself too

GUYS , I need your help finding a book . All i remember is that it was a mafia book and she tried to kill herself on the room but someone found her , dhe tried to kill herself on her birthday and they wanted to throw a party for her so they wehen to look for her . She was smoking and drinking, and the love interest found a cigarette on the balcony, so he looked up and saw her. Help please

My apologies for sliding into your Conversations board uninvited.
          I just wanted to grab your attention to my stories. There is an arranged marriage story, a teen romance, a young adult, and some mafia stories.
          Once again, I'm sorry for intruding.  
           Have a nice day ahead!!!
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/239672415-mafia-miss-honey

My parents just gave away my cat and dog 

It's my birthday 

Hi love!!!
          I hope you are well. I'm just stopping by to remind you that you are beautiful, special and amazing. There's no other like you, because you are unique. Have an awesome day/afternoon/night✨
          
          P.S. If you perhaps have time, you are welcome to check out my book, Consumed by Her. Mwah❤