I hate 2020 so much. It made me feel so disconnected from everyone. Like, my main coping mechanism that I used to combat anxiety, depression, and trauma was to hang out with my friends. But this year, I couldn't do that. And then this morning something really traumatic happened and I don't know what to do about it. I know im privileged. Im white, im cis, I live in America and am lower-middle class. I have a good family and good friends. So I don't understand why im so depressed and anxious all the time. I feel so guilty. I just want to cry and throw myself into a volcano ✌
Im sorry for being negative on here, I always want to spread positive vibes, but I just needed to rant I guess. On a more positive note, being active on wattpad has changed my life. Reading things I love and talking with people who like the same things I like has made me feel so accepted. Wattpad truly made me feel less alone this year and im so so so grateful for each and every one of you, even if we have never interacted.