XOXOXO

hey guys i know i havent been here in a longggg time but i had got my phone back so i wasnt on wattpad a lot i was more into my social life , i made new friends and sadly i lost one :( rest in peace LLI, but i started to do good mentally untill my friend passed i tried not thinking abt it but i still do sometimes little things remind me of him like the color blue i miss you every day, it feels like its been forever i miss you so much.
          but i had therapy today and my mom wouldnt give me my phone back like i wont kms this is litterally why i have therapy so i spent today crying all day cause i havent felt okay this month i feel like im slowly falling apart after i just put my self together,  when i do stuff or when i feel like i was actually happy i think about you cause i know you would be happy of how far i come, but now that im not okay mentally i miss facetiming you while i was crying at lunch and you trying to make me feel better, im so sorry i took the time between us for granted:( i miss you so much.
          
          im back now guys i hope yall have been good:) but i cant promise that ill be here for long, when i get my phone im probably gonna zone out or not be on my phone unless its for music but ill try okay guys

TURNS OUT HES MARRIED AND HAS KIDS LIKE BROO???????????? HE LOOKS FUCKING 16 AHHHHHH

AND I LITTERALLY TOLD EVERYONE AT THE PARTY LIKE MY COUSIN AND HIS BOSS WITH IS MY FAVORITE UNCLES WIFE THAT HE WAS CUTE

-is on the side of the house so i walked over their and walked back to the back and i was looking for him and i 
          
          went back to the front and he was like looking at me to go over their BITCH I WAS SO TEMPTED BUTTT he was drunk and i didnt  want him to do anything he wouldnt like want to do if he wasnt 
          
          and so i was focused at the kids but while i was with the kids( i didnt know he wanted me to go over their i started over thinking it  yeah) so i was playing wit the kids outside the trampoline i didnt go in 
          
          and so i went back to the back and said bye to him again while i said bye AGAIN to my favorite uncle and so i kissed him again and then walked away and when i did i was lazy with my hand and like 
          
          it slid on his belt and to his phone I DIDNT DO IT ON PURPOSE I SWEAR BUT I DIDNT HAVE A PROBLEM WITH IT anyways i was like byeeee and i left fr and now im gonna have dreams about him FUCKK
          
          his name was christan so so if i have any characters named christan then yk (you know) why

I HAVE TEAA 
          
           okay so yesterday(saturday)  we went to this party and this cute ass guy came with my favorite uncle right and he had his own truck and shit right okay so today
          
          (sunday) we had another party YK HOW US MEXICANS BEEEE  anyways so he was their and he was already their when i got their so if your hispanic ykkk
          
          so i went to say hi to him (GIRL WHILE WRIGHTING THIS I CAN STILL SMELL HIM OMFGGG (he smells like cologne and baby laundry ditergent PLEASE I WANNA MARRY HIM)) anyways i went to say hi and after shaking his hand i kissed him on the cheek witch i didnt do to anyone else but the 
          
          old people anyways i kissed him and walked away and i was soooo fucking happy so during the party i was like glancing at him and looked sometimes to him AHH WE MADE EYECONTACT ND I DIDNT FUCKING 
          
          BREAK IT anyways when i left i was gonna say bye but he was on the other side of the picknik table so i went over their to give him a kiss and he put his hand on my hip AHHHHHH and like omfg 
          
          anyways so i went to walk to the front cause the house is kinda on a hill so the trampoline-

never mind i want it to end i wanna leave here plzzz i want to go to school again

HOT GIRL SUMMER HAS JUST FUCKING STARTEDD AHHHHH

bro ima rock these bitches ass i stg

what do yall think about the name mavi its so cute (its in a book im reading)

so im always honest with yall as i hope yall are with me..so if anything is bothering yall please let me know im here to talk if yall would like