sugacookieko

Am I really such an unlikeable person that mother can’t stand me anymore either?
          	
          	Why do I try and validate myself to talking to guys who will only ever want my body? 
          	
          	Why is it when I feel like things are going well and that I’m in a better place everything starts to crumble?
          	
          	I’m not asking for answers I’m just writing my questions down..... 
          	
          	I’m honestly sorry so extremely sorry for every little thing I do because I know for a fact I can never make people happy sincere it’s so unattainable and I’m so bloody screwed up....if only people knew the half of it.
          	 hahaha
          	
          	
          	Mum I’m so sorry that I’m turning into everyone else..... like you said earlier I’m just like my dead beat, awful, volatile messed up basket case that’s my father and I will never ever deserve your love and kindness......I’m so fu$king sorry.

sugacookieko

Am I really such an unlikeable person that mother can’t stand me anymore either?
          
          Why do I try and validate myself to talking to guys who will only ever want my body? 
          
          Why is it when I feel like things are going well and that I’m in a better place everything starts to crumble?
          
          I’m not asking for answers I’m just writing my questions down..... 
          
          I’m honestly sorry so extremely sorry for every little thing I do because I know for a fact I can never make people happy sincere it’s so unattainable and I’m so bloody screwed up....if only people knew the half of it.
           hahaha
          
          
          Mum I’m so sorry that I’m turning into everyone else..... like you said earlier I’m just like my dead beat, awful, volatile messed up basket case that’s my father and I will never ever deserve your love and kindness......I’m so fu$king sorry.

sugacookieko

I am becoming a horrible person......and it saddens me so much.

sugacookieko

@magickshoppe thank you so very much for your words it really means a lot to me and how I think know about the situation, I do have the will to change so I will stop doing the wrong things and start a new. 
            
            Your advice and words were extremely helpful for me thank you.
            
            I hope you have a wonderful day you are a kind and beautiful person
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magickshoppe

@sugacookieko Truly horrible people don't ever feel like they're horrible. If you think you're doing something wrong and you show the will to change, you're not ever as far lost as you feel. The fact that you are even evaluating yourself this way shows your advancement. Like Namjoon said, everything you have done and everything you will do is still 'you'. We all have regrets and pain, So please, Stay strong, give yourself time to grow.
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