Trinity_Nicks

Did some editing on Sybil's Stalker and combined the chapters. Might be some more editing today :)

I'm done textin first
          I'm done being last
          I'm done bein hurt
          And I'm done being pasted
          I'm done bein abused
          And I'm done bein used
          I'm done 
          I'm just done

I wrote a song:©
          I like you
          But you don't even care
          I gave you my heart 
          But you wouldn't dare
          I spilled it all to you
          You gave little in return
          I don't think you understand
          Just how much it burned
          You broke my heart
          It turned from hot to cold
          You put me in a box
          Of which I had to stay
          Cause there is no escape
          To this little game
          I want out
          And of which no return
          I wanna make you feel
          Just how much it hurt
          You say you care
          But your never really there
          And you say things
          Most people don't
          Makes me think you want more
          When I know you really don't
          And I can't change you
          Or change your mind
          But I gotta let you know
          before I run out of time
          That I care for you
          More than you'll ever know
          That I'm always there for you
          Even if it doesn't show
          That you can trust me
          I'll keep it all confidentially
          You never have to think
          You can't confide in me
          And I'll hold you
          When your down
          Then build you up again
          You'll never have to doubt
          But you know what
          You don't feel the same
          What would you do 
          If I just walked away
          Would you let me
          Or would you stop me
          Would you beg for me
          Or would you turn away
          Do you really care 
          Thats what pops in my head
          Are you really there
          Or is this all in my head
          I need help
          I need advice
          should I walk away
          Or should I stay and play nice 
          So tell me
          How do you really feel
          You know you broke my heart
          And that takes time to heal
          You have time 
          so go ahead and think
          Are you gonna run
          or are you gonna stay
          Cause I need an answer 
          Before I walk away

I feel like I have no friends like fr. No one ever text me or asks me to hang out. But then when we get back to school they wanna tell me all about the great weekend they had. Like bitch! I don't wanna hear about the plans you made and invited everyone else in our group except me! It hurts!

Guys... I thought I was feeling better... Then I woke up with only half my voice

Day 5: I was taking to my ex last night after midnight, and we realized that today was the 24th. One year ago today, we started going out... And we were taking about go we met and started dating while we were both in military school... The memories!

Day 4: So we had a pep rally today! It was really fucking crazy! My crush was with his friends in a different section not far from mine and I swear, he was having his own little party! We talked a little bit not for very long... When I told him I wasn't staying after school for the JROTC tailgate party, he seemed upset about it, but ionno.

Day 3: So it was raining today... They made us do three lunches, which ig is okay. I still had the same lunch with my crush... We hung out at lunch today! But we didn't talk much, it was more a group thing than a alone kinda thing. We talked about how penguins have knees, nd how piano players are called pianist, but why are racecar drivers not called racist? Think about... I'm not racist! Just saying! The word racist can have more than one meaning! But all in all I think it went well. What do you think?

Day 2: so where I sit at lunch is in direct path of the eyesight of my crush! And so throughout lunch I glance over and we end up making eye contact. But yet he never wants to walk over and talk to me. But he's 100% there to text me all night. I'm so confused and I'm so lost! Any advice? Help!

Day 1: So I moved away from where I loved now 6 yrs ago, leaving behind my childhood bestfriend... I moved back in December and we've been talking and I finally told him that I've had a huge crush on him since before I moved away and by me coming back I had realized how I had felt back then was still there... He told me that he would date me once I was single... Note that at this point he had never had his first gf, his first kiss, or had sex... And so I felt secure, I felt hopefull. But then not a week later he text me saying that a girl asks him out and he said yes. I felt hurt, I felt betrayed. I didn't know what to do, so I stopped talking to him. Well that lasted all of two days, I mean he's me childhood bestfriend, I coulndnt not talk to him. right? I still feel hurt and betrayed and I don't know what to do or how I should let him know that it still hurts and bothers me that he got a gf after he told me that I would be his gf once I was single. Do you have any advice for me??