suicidal--idol_hyper
my parents found out.
suicidal--idol_hyper
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you know its getting real fucking bad when the emo/alt kid pulls out the Conan Gray shuffle card, huh?
suicidal--idol_hyper
why am i only pretty if i look at myself like a goddamn object
Camiloisamazing
@suicidal--idol_hyper You're a pretty human If this makes you feel better I am jealous of how you look (gen)
suicidal--idol_hyper
why is it either cutting or smut? what is wrong with me?
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i am like actually fucking struggling now like i know it for sure
i was always doubting if i was overreacting or faking it or some shit but like im sure
suicidal--idol_hyper
@Camiloisamazing in a weird way i really hope its not fake i hope im not overreacting or somehow faking or forcing it without knowing
suicidal--idol_hyper
what if i like did do it
i wouldnt have to go through this again
i wouldnt struggle again
i wouldnt feel useless again
i wouldnt wonder why i was alive again
i wouldnt be
suicidal--idol_hyper
@Camiloisamazing i know it wont be the same when i come back from the break, but that doesnt mean i dont want to leave i really dont. i dont want our friendship to end i never have
suicidal--idol_hyper
@Camiloisamazing you arent dead yet, maybe you wont be then its nicer than reality, but i can still at least hope they come true
suicidal--idol_hyper
@Camiloisamazing i know you did, but i still want it to i always wanted to and i still do i still believe it can and i still hope time heals. i want it to
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back finally
suicidal--idol_hyper
am i being manipulative???
i don't even know
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i'm the problem no no no i'm the problem no fuck no no no
i'm a manipulator.
i swear i wasn't trying to be one.
fuck no-
fuck fuck fuck i didn't know what i was doing i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm so sorry i'm so sorry please i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry