Hey! I fought suicide before too. In fact, I had grown a suicidal OBSESSION. Every day I spent thinking up a will, planning my death out. I cut myself daily. I hurt myself in every way i could. I hated myself. There were voices in my head that told me I should die, and that I was a piece of ****.
One day i tried to kill myself with the knife I was cutting with. Even though I had nothing to live for, I felt something stopping me. A different voice told me that He loves me, that I don't have to do this, it said don't do this Noah, I love you and you mean everything to me.
I later found out that was God. And it wasn't easy, it was painful and it was slow, but Jesus led me out of where I was, because even though I hated God, He still loved me. And life didn't feel worth it then, it might not feel worth it to you right now, but it will. It will. You have a purpose, you have a reason to exist, and you are LOVED.
I just wanted to tell you that. And I would love to PM you over anything at all, and I would love to offer my help to you in every way! Don't ever give up, you can't see what is in store for you, but it's there!!
