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@suicide_Idol  I understand you there even though my headaches luckily got a bit less again. This sounds horrible. I hope you'll be able to get something for it to get better again :(.
            
            I'm okay.

@suicide_Idol oh I hope you get better soon! I think I’m fine or something like that

@suicide_Idol  I need you so much in my life that it is really hurting but the thought of us meeting one day keeps me going. I hope that day will come soon, because i love you so much. And when you don't have the energy to text me remember that it's ok because i am always with you and you can just write letters to me where you tell me everything thats going on. I do that too and it truly helps me. I can't spend one day without thinking of you because you are so important to me i never want to lose you.I love you and our friendship so so much, always remember that. <333

@suicide_Idol  I get you so much. I know that it's hard right now for you but i know that you can make it through. I do the same thing pulling away from the people i love most because i am scared to lose them. I would literally give everything to leave this fucked up world with all its hurt and responsibilities behind and run away with you to live the happiest of all lifes together. I don't want to feel trapped in this circle of living the same day every day anymore. I want to break free from it and really start living together with you by my side.I feel the same, i felt more distant from you because of the same thing. I was scared to text you about my problems because yes i have many but i felt like they were small and dumb compared to yours. I really thought that I would trouble you with my stupid stuff because of all the things you are going through. You are the first person that I really feel safe with and i know i can trust you with anything. I don't have to be scared of what i tell you because you might use it against me and i don't have to feel like i have to try hard to keep you by my side. It is just so easy with you and I think you are my first friend that is not toxic. But that makes it even more scary the thought of losing you. But i know that we could spend months not texting and i would still love you the same as i do now (but i hope that we won't be not texting such a long time because i think i would go insane without you). So trust me you won't lose me that easily.I hate that you are drowning under all this pressure and i can't really do anything from here. I hate that I live so far away from you, because i really want to see you truly happy. I want you to forget all your worries and just feel free.

@Grindelduck_28 Oh, my precious love,
            I'm so sorry for not being online on WhatsApp much. My PC logged me out, and honestly, I just don’t have the energy to log back in.
            
            I love you too, and I appreciate you even more. You’re like a rare gem I found on the beach—something so precious that I want to treasure it for the rest of my life. But I’m so scared of losing everyone that I start pulling away from the people I love. I don’t know why I do that. I’m so scared, Duckling. So endlessly scared. I just want to hide from all this responsibility.
            
            Let’s run away, baby. I don’t want this pressure anymore.
            I just need to relax, even though I’m not really doing anything right now. I just feel so trapped by everything I have to do this year. I wish I could run away with a few million euros and hide with you.
            Why is life so complicated? I don’t get it.
            
            I will always be there for you too—God, I love you so much. It’s just... I don’t know if it’s true, but lately, I’ve felt so distant from you. I’m scared to text you because it feels like you have so many problems that mine seem insignificant in comparison.
            
            I know you love me, and I’m so incredibly grateful for your love. It’s the warmest love I’ve ever felt from a friend. But that just makes me even more scared. I’m terrified of losing the connection we have and the love we share. It’s just too much right now. I feel like I’m drowning, and not in a good way.
            
            I’m so happy to have you, but I’m also so frustrated with how little I actually get to have of you.
            I need you in my life.
            I really, truly cherish our friendship. But I miss you so much it hurts.
            
            Thank you for being there for me, Duckling.
            I love you more. <33333

@Jimixkoo_ My parents don’t believe in medical treatment, only in natural and organic products. I mean, they work most of the time, but I have something like an allergic reaction— I don’t know, it’s very painful. And we can’t go to the doctor because of the money and because they don’t really like doctors. I haven’t been to a doctor since I was about six.
            
            
            
            She’s just very busy, and I’m just someone she knows. To her, all of her friends are her "best friends." We met last year, so it’s not that tragic. But my last best friend also left me last year (in January), in exactly the same way—except she really wanted to end the friendship. You know? They just stop talking, and after a while, I feel stupid always being the one to text them first.
            
            Thank you, darling. Love you so much. <3 I just don’t have Instagram on my PC, and yeah, I feel so insecure talking about myself. Maybe because everyone I open up to and show my real self to vanishes just as my heart starts feeling safe. (That sounds like I’m making myself a victim—sorry, I don’t mean it that way.)
            
            
            I don’t know, maybe they’re busy or just forget about me. Or maybe I’m boring, or maybe I’m a bad person and they feel weighed down because of me. You can never really know.
            I mean, I know I’m a very annoying person and I get attached way too fast. Many people have told me before that I talk too much and that I’m super unlikable. I don’t know, maybe that’s just how they feel about me. I really don’t know how I come across to other people. I mean, everyone tells me I’m nice, sweet, funny, and soooo helpful, but then they act like I’m exhausting and a total b*tch. I don’t know, it’s just so confusing that I don’t believe anyone anymore, I guess.
            
            
            
            I hope so too. I’m really about to give up everything I am. I have never felt so broken and lost before. It really scares me.

@suicide_Idol Did you take meds?? ☹️☹️
            Ohh, semester. Uni people, yes?? 
            No, no. Don't blame yourself please. You need to talk to her, and ask her why. Don't blame yourself for no reason. That's not how it works ☹️
            Ahhhhh, you can text me any time (on my Mb or ig) I'll b here, okayyy?? (I've been a bit busy because of studies ☹️) 
            Also, they aren't your friends then... Why would they not text?? T T
            Mean people!!! 
            I hope you'll find some people who are wayyyy better ❤

@Kpop-meme143 <33 aww schtazie du bist so süß. danke dir ich bin auhc immer für dich da. btw wie gehts dir so?
            wie ist die klinik?.
            Hab dich so lieb<333

@RJEm09 thank youuu<3

@suicide_Idol oh no, I hope you get better soon….

@RJEm09 oh idk life is just a little hard at the time. Im sick again. thank you for asking<33
            thats great hows life right now for you? <3

@Kpop-meme143 <3

@suicide_Idol das ist eine gute Frage 

@suicide_Idol  That's absolutely right!

@suicide_Idol It's okayyyy ❤❤
            Take your timeeeee
            No worriessss

@suicide_Idol  Okay. Take care <3 Lyt <33

@suicide_Idol  Okay, good.

@GimAgim i guesssss sooo ?? XD

@suicide_Idol  That's good, right?

@suicide_Idol  YAAAYYYY

@Kpop-meme143 <33 hab dich lieb schatz

@disgustinghoney well da hast du wohl recht. sie sind einfahc absolut uninterressiert an mir. zwei von ihnene haben mir seit september nicht mehr geschriben und jtz kommt plötzlich einer von ihenn und schreib in unsere gruppe 'Leute wir machne party nächste woche ein nein wird nicht akzeptiert' ich meine ja es war spaß aber trotzdem. idk es ist so anstrengend für mich-
            
            vielleicht werde ich das. wir haben eh oft deep talk aber keien ahnung ich habmich halt damals voll mit ziehen lassen und sie dann wie ein pendel genau so angespornt mit dem thema essen und so.
            
            du hast ja so recht. ich verusche eh gerade so bisschen mehr selfcare cleangril shit zu leben es klappt langsam aber es es wird.<3 danke dir darling <3433

@suicide_Idol kein Problem mein Herz ❤️