summoningALLthegays

imagine being an addiction/craving holder?
          could never be me
          
          they still think arlo is the only one
          (dw no cutt!ng)

i should NOT have done that arm wrestling competition, my arm is killing me

bruh in french we get to write 400 word paper about immigrants and people with multiple nationalities and their struggles and advantages.
          
          i manifested this to happen yall
          
          you better BET im yapping about everything
          
          also my friends are using me as their topic of their paper lmaooo
          im using myself so i dont blame em lol
          
          anyways, time for me to actually get good sleep

friendly reminder:
          
          mixed people get hate for being colored, not being fully colored, being whitewashed, being light, being dark, having skin discoloration, having a mix of cultures, following tradition, not following traditions, speaking another language, speaking multiple languages in one sentence, not speaking a language other than english, looking *enter nationality 1*, looking *nationality 2*, not looking like any of your heritages, having a different culture (x2), having a mix of cultures, having colored friends, having white friends, being too left, being too right, being in the middle, eating different foods (x2), following stereotypes, hating stereotypes, making racist jokes, not being able to take a "joke", being too undersensitive about things, being oversensitive about things, and so much more
          
          be nice to your mixed friends guys, not cause theyre mixed, cause i asked you
          i have gotten all of this hate

"imagine if a man said that to a woman nowadays"
          bruh, they have "nowadays" -_-
          
          "yeah, maybe 50 years ago"
          nope, there are still s3x!st people/men out there. they didnt disapear with slav3ry, neither did racism. but to be fair slav3ry never ended (im not exaggerating saying "oh school is slav3ry blah blah blah" no there is literal ch!ld l@b0r happening all over the world and slav3ry including ch!ld tr@ffic!ng).
          
          "*changes topic*"
          alr yeah you know you lost idiot

i feel like i make people a bit uncomfy with my racist jokes,
          i made one at church today and it was just like "dang foreigners" cause it was just some lady who ripped me off or whatever
          
          and the people who knew me (around 70%) were laughing around with me ofc, cause they know
          but that 30% was doint the silence or akward laugh
          
          and thats when i realized
          
          im in a room full of white people (5th gen americans or more), they cant really connect to these jokes and/or dont know im kidding
          
          so then i say "oh dw im from a family of immigrants"
          and so i ponder now
          
          how different must it be when you cant really say racist jokes? like i feel like it isnt really supported in society for white people to joke about racism because of what slave owners did or what my grandma does to this day
          
          and like, ive had my share of race-based actions towards me and comments, so i feel like i should be able to make those jokes. But white people? idk man i feel like they would get slimed out
          
          for me im used to stuff like that so i wont hold it against anyone if they make a "racist" joke
          
          but for me its the people who are scared to say anything remotely connected to a race-based action or comment. like, bro. the fact that you are just doing something random and thinking im going to take it as a race vs race thing is in itself race-based. 
          
          like there was a kid back in mid who bumped into me in the hallway and later was talking to me about how he was worried that id think he did it as an act against mexican people
          
          bro wtf
          you just bumped into me
          stop bringing race into ts
          
          me however, i bring race into a few things cause 1. im mixed, ive gotten all the questions. 2. i joke about my pain yuh (star emoji)
          
          same thing with my guy JM, he makes racist jokes, but no one knows how many racist jokes hes dealt with since hes mixed aswell
          
          not to mention his situation that NO ONE ever empathizes for btw (he doesnt want any pity tho so hes 100% cool with only me acknowledging)
          
          but yea
          diff race diff world

i just spent the whole day with my friends (work friends then school friends)
          im so happy
          
          i got to spend 3 whole hours with the guy i love most in the world which is amazinnnggg
          
          and i got to chill with my besties ^^
          
          my outfit was peak, tho it lowk made me a box but its okay cause JM said i looked awesome soooo that means i lookes awesome
          
          Peace out!

POV:
          your the alter thats meant to represent the body as a whole and your white and blond while the body is brunnette and brown/tan
          
          welp, i wonder what that means :3
          
          unresolved racial conflict trauma lol

YES LETS GO IM OUT OF HELL AND MAYBE INTO ANOTHER FORM OF IT BUT THIS ONES BETTER
          
          CAUSE I ACTUALLY HAVE A CHANCE
          
          i like someone again
          and yeah i know im always like "i rarely fall in love blah blah blah"
          
          i say this because ive never stayed at a school as a teenager more than 2 years, so now im actually getting people ive known for ages and liking them
          (demiro)
          
          anyways, im happy

"i think im in love with the idea of her"