Darkness has surrounded me again. It has always calmed me. I have loved darkness, but this time hollowness and numbness have accompanied it, making me suffocate. The windows have closed in my mind, and it’s so lonely in here. No knocks can be heard, and no air comes in. It’s exhausting. I am tired, I don't want wake up. I wish I could lose myself or a while but I’ll have to live. I wish I had an option to escape, but that seems like a distant thoughts