sundrained

  it's been about two years. honestly a little surprised. personal stuff has happened, but i'm doing alright and all that. as you probably may know, this account has long since been inactive. i have not contacted anyone i've met from this site either in ages.
          	
          	  all i do need to say, if the person this is directed to still uses this site— is that i apologize, sleepless. i apologize for the way i handled things two years ago, and for attempting to contact you after months. i will admit, it was immature of me. despite of every moment of hatred i felt for you, i still did want the connection we used to have. i suppose that's really the only thing i can remember that i can really apologize for.
          	
          	  you very obviously have to choice to not forgive me, and i will not blame you. i've moved on past wanting a connection again / wanting forgiveness and while i am reluctant to say this, i find it hard to ever re-establish a connection with you again. 
          	
          	   i do not necessarily find myself to be fond of the way you handled things as well however, 'nor do i like how you treated my ocs back then. i have long torn association with them, and i am content without them. 
          	
          	  i have my own gripes with what i have seen, and the conversations between us. my boundaries were never clear but i was uncomfortable with several things within conversations and past stuff. i cannot remember much unfortunately. other than that, i feel that even now, some of the things you did outright affected me mentally in a negative way. i simply want to let go of this entirely, and not be burdened by hatred anymore. i have a life now, and i cannot spend it thinking about how things could've gone differently. what's happened has happened. there is no changing that.
          	
          	  there's an awfully low chance this'll be seen. i do not know who you're associated with anymore, 'nor do i want to bother to seek them out. they deserve to be left alone, unbothered. 
          	
          	  i wish well to anyone else who happens to see this.

sundrained

@HollowArtz11
          	  
          	    it wasn't exactly hard for me to do so, but that's besides the point. i agree with you, and i don't like the idea of being the first to reach out. it still hurts, yes but it's normal cause it's hurt me too. over time i believe it'll go away.
          	  
          	    of course. at the time neither of us knew better, but there's no excuse. that's good to hear. while i did let go for a multitude of reasons— hatred, guilt, paranoia and all of that, i know better.
          	  
          	    i apologize for that too, i understand that it was extremely immature of me. there's no excuse for the way i behaved then and there's no use dwelling on it. all i will say on the matter though, is that i felt guilt for the damage i'd done for the longest time. while i have gotten over it, it felt unfair to have left it without a proper conclusion hence why i'm even here writing this in the first place.
          	  
          	    i don't know whether to accept your apology or not considering despite of everything, we're truthfully deathly afraid of you. i'm glad that we can properly go our separate ways without an argument at the very least. this was a surprisingly decent talk, i guess i should properly say goodbye now though. i wish you well, hollow.
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sundrained

  it's been about two years. honestly a little surprised. personal stuff has happened, but i'm doing alright and all that. as you probably may know, this account has long since been inactive. i have not contacted anyone i've met from this site either in ages.
          
            all i do need to say, if the person this is directed to still uses this site— is that i apologize, sleepless. i apologize for the way i handled things two years ago, and for attempting to contact you after months. i will admit, it was immature of me. despite of every moment of hatred i felt for you, i still did want the connection we used to have. i suppose that's really the only thing i can remember that i can really apologize for.
          
            you very obviously have to choice to not forgive me, and i will not blame you. i've moved on past wanting a connection again / wanting forgiveness and while i am reluctant to say this, i find it hard to ever re-establish a connection with you again. 
          
             i do not necessarily find myself to be fond of the way you handled things as well however, 'nor do i like how you treated my ocs back then. i have long torn association with them, and i am content without them. 
          
            i have my own gripes with what i have seen, and the conversations between us. my boundaries were never clear but i was uncomfortable with several things within conversations and past stuff. i cannot remember much unfortunately. other than that, i feel that even now, some of the things you did outright affected me mentally in a negative way. i simply want to let go of this entirely, and not be burdened by hatred anymore. i have a life now, and i cannot spend it thinking about how things could've gone differently. what's happened has happened. there is no changing that.
          
            there's an awfully low chance this'll be seen. i do not know who you're associated with anymore, 'nor do i want to bother to seek them out. they deserve to be left alone, unbothered. 
          
            i wish well to anyone else who happens to see this.

sundrained

@HollowArtz11
            
              it wasn't exactly hard for me to do so, but that's besides the point. i agree with you, and i don't like the idea of being the first to reach out. it still hurts, yes but it's normal cause it's hurt me too. over time i believe it'll go away.
            
              of course. at the time neither of us knew better, but there's no excuse. that's good to hear. while i did let go for a multitude of reasons— hatred, guilt, paranoia and all of that, i know better.
            
              i apologize for that too, i understand that it was extremely immature of me. there's no excuse for the way i behaved then and there's no use dwelling on it. all i will say on the matter though, is that i felt guilt for the damage i'd done for the longest time. while i have gotten over it, it felt unfair to have left it without a proper conclusion hence why i'm even here writing this in the first place.
            
              i don't know whether to accept your apology or not considering despite of everything, we're truthfully deathly afraid of you. i'm glad that we can properly go our separate ways without an argument at the very least. this was a surprisingly decent talk, i guess i should properly say goodbye now though. i wish you well, hollow.
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