sunflower-halo

i (might be) back c:
          	
          	took like a 6month break and may have forgotten about this so... but im back!! kind of :/ 
          	
          	i think i'll stick to reading for now, but i might get some ideas for new chapters soon.
          	how are you all?
          	
          	isla x

sunflower-halo

im going to be honest with all of you right now.
          long distance relationships are hard. you have to commit yourself fully. you cant be there to make sure everything is okay. you cant kiss them, you cant touch them. that is heartbreaking. maybe thats what we werent ready for? you, and you know who you are, were my first love. i gave everything. you gave everything. but maybe we werent meant to be? maybe the world didnt want us to be together? it tried everything to pull us apart. we both know that. now we have stopped resisting. we've let it happen. im sorry. more than words can describe. i know you'll tell me its okay and thats its fine but its really not. please, take your time. take your space. i know it feels like im on your back all the time, but i just need to know youre okay. you're gonna read this and probably text me about it. you dont want to be mentioned, and im sorry about that, but this is everything i couldn't get in the letter. i didnt want to text you it. 
          
          its going to be difficult. i knew that from the start. there are going to be some days where its too much to handle. there are going to be days where im in denial. there are going to be days where I'll just fall apart. i know that. i knew that from the start. please, dont worry about me. any of you. i will be fine, i will be okay. do not worry. life goes on. 
          
          focus on the positive.
          thank you, all of you.
          
          
          and to you, 
          take all the time you need. i will be here when you need me.
          i love you, angel. 
          always have, always will.
          
          isla.

sunflower-halo

so i have not been in a good mental state lately. its difficult. its harder than before. getting over someone is one of the hardest things ever. but i am trying. i am sorry. i dont know who will see this but i love you. all of you. you guys have been too good to me over the past year. thank you. that book found me the girl i was and still am in love with. that book found me the girl that deserves the world and more. i cant thank you all enough. now is just the hard part. (1)