sunfloweryangi

Life isn't that serious and so I moved to ao3 #copingwell

I call myself sapphic, but I'm really just a lesbian of some sort? Idk if u can say the tv glows because most of the time it doesn't.. I truly love the masculine part of the word 'man,' and that's about it. 

2nd time I got my twitter account suspended, LOL. 1st time it was spam and 2nd time prolly for the same purpose ngl. I gotta stop reposting my favs content in a row

I'm no longer a fan of trendz that much

I became a trendz fan. It took me like months to accept it. LIKE. It's weird, I used to call myself a p1ece for the longest time..and even now. I don't refer to myself as that, and now I drifted away from p1eceville life. It's been 3 years since I liked piwon. SO..rip. Now, idk if liking trendz will end in disarray or not. It's such a small, active fandom, and it scares me because you are seen. Like I feel like I'm in school again, seeing all these formed circles. I'm just going to like in secret.

I think something is wrong with me but I don't know how to fix it

bro, it's almost spring right. Or it is. So, I'm lowkey getting back into fanfic writing. All roads lead back to fanfiction.

the trendz concert in ireland changed my life, in a quiet way. Gotta be chalant about it because it was very good guys, like eat my a$$ good. Never had my ahh ate, BUT if I did, it'd probably be what this concert gave me. I'm lowkey becoming a FRIENDZ, a fan of TRENDZ atp. Like parasocially too atp. I give up, I'm gonna be happy about a couple of guys again. I lowkey am treating them as  when I find indie singers. I don't gatekeep, I yap usually. I just invest my time streaming songs i love from them. I moved music platforms just for TRENDZ. I'm gone, guys. 
          
          I want to see TRENDZ again. I guess I also want to see those FRIENDZ again in the same place. But, I am asking for so much because everyone likes them in a casual way too..and I can't talk like CRAZILY about them. So, I'm on my own again. ;-; BUT I WASN'T DURING THE CONCERT, or even UPCOMING THE CONCERT. :)
          
          I'm super grateful to them, even tho i dissed them for having songs that remind me of old people songs (learn to love/vagabond) tbh, although I love Vagabond. I like 3rd Gen bg music, idk why I was hating (it was because they cancelled last time, and I wasn't able to score a ticket anyway.)
          
          They were so cool, as cool as p1harmony to me. Their presence was JUST THE SAME. Professionals are so cool. Man, f*
          
          I wish I had a dream to follow like they did. I'm just freeballing life, fml. I'm so obsessed. I bought their 8 euro 1 yr membership.
          

Bruh. I just ended up leaving fandom life altogether. I'm just saving fanfics to read for later, regardless of if I know the lore or not.
          
          LMFAO. I am still seeing trendz in meath tho. Yippee.

Birthday and for what? Didn't feel like it. Nor did Christmas, probably not even for New Years either. Blah Blah.