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IM TRYING MY BEST WHY DONT THEY CARE (the message below is the first one btw this was something I just forgot to add it in)
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WHY DOES EVERYBODY HATE ME I DONT GET IT AT ALL :( IM IN A GC, RIGHT, AND WHENEVER I MAKE A LITTLE MISTAKE OR ACT SALTY (I have genuinely terrifying mood swings from time to time I can barely control them) THEY SUDDENLY ACT SALTY AGAIN AND EVEN WHEN I DONT THEY STILL DO AND I JUST CANT FIND PEACE, WHENEVER I TRY TO SAY SOMETHING THEY EITHER START BLAMING ME AND SPOTTING OUT MISTAKES, CHANGE THE TOPIC OR COMPLETELY GO SILENT. I HAVE SO UNBELIEVABLY MUCH ON MY BACK RIGHT NOW AND THEY DO TOO BUT WHY CANT THEY FORGIVE ME AND FORGET IT?? I DO THAT TOO ALL THE TIME WHENEVER THEY MESS UP AND NOBODY DOES THE SAME TO ME WHY DOES EVERYBODY HATE ME I CANT TAKE THIS ANYMORE IM BEING SERIOUS
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are you guys even there?
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the urge to write an espresso x madeleine oneshot is consuming me
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guys my stomach hurts really really bad after eating milk chocolate what do I do and does that mean im lactose intolerant im so mad
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@Mr-Builder_WAAPP well yeah, usually when I eat anything with milk or lactose my stomach starts to... oh my days im lactose intolerant
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I like birb =P
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guys is there even point in continuing "the armageddon"? I have so many plans for it but it feels like my english just sucks and I suck and I just need to quit idk man
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GUYS I WAS SCROLLING THROUGH PINTEREST FOR MINDLESS SELF INDULGENCE PINS AND I WENT ACROSS A PIN WITH THE SHORT VER. OF THE GROUP NAME "MSI" AND I WAS LIKE "I wonder what MSI stands for..." AND A STUPID VOICE IN MY BRAIN WENT "mental state institute" AND I WAS LIKE "yeah.. that sounds right..." AND IT TOOK ME A WHILE TO REALIZE I WASNT CORRECT LOLLLL
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everything is getting worse I can't take this anymore
Odysseus__OfIthaca
@sungshinehehe I get that.. my mental stability had also deteriorated a ton—mental breakdowns are very overstimulating on the brain. It hurts me that someone would have to endure do much pain that they want to stop it all. I understand that. I'm genuinely so glad you didn't end up disappearing. I reached out because I care, even for people I don't talk with often! Thanks for reassuring me! You deserve my every bit of love and true happiness! <3 You can always talk to me if something's up. I know my way around words :D
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@Mia_Builder_WAAPP hey! hi, sorry for making you worry, I had a really bad mental breakdown bc my family (if I can even call them like that) ruined my everything. It's complicated, but im fine now. By the time I wrote the message that your replied on, I was already prepping to.. well... y'know. End it. But thank you for reaching out to me, im okay now. Thank you for your concern <3
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happy birthday to me..
Polities-The-Pancake
@sungshinehehe it's not one bit a burden!! Trust me, I wouldn't have offered if it was. I'm here if you ever change your mind!!^^