1775rik
Merry Christmas! Don't know if you still look here or on Twitter but I've left a slightly longer message there. Hope all is well with you
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1775rik
Merry Christmas!! I don't know if you'll see this is time, but I hope you have a great time and that the new year is very good to you. I know how important this season is to you. Hope all is well with you.
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this past friday i officially graduated with an Honours Bachelor’s degree in Psychology it feels like just yesterday i was starting my first year of undergrad in my basement doing all online courses because of the COVID-19 lockdown; it’s so crazy to see how far i’ve really come and i don’t think i’ve ever really said it but i think i am genuinely proud of myself
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@1775rik sorry for such a late reply! thank you so much :) especially for sticking around since the time in the basement lol many of our conversations helped me get through some bumps during those 4 years so that really meant a lot to me! i did also finally send u a reply to your message on twitter by the way but don’t feel pressured to respond if you don’t want to :)
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@sunny_tumblr Seeing this really made my day. I'm so pround of you!! I've never had any doubt you would get to here. And an honours degree to boot! A real achievement. This is just terrific. I know it took much hard work and determination. I'm glad to read that you feel proud of yourself as that pride is truly well deserved. I know you will put the degree to good use and that the degree will benefit many people as well as yourself. Thanks so much for posting this and please continue to feel proud of yourself. That feeling is always well deserved. You are an extraordinary person and its been a pleasure to be able to follow along since that time in the basement
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i will always advocate for going to therapy for literally any reason bc it can be so life changing but let me tell you, finding out how badly i’ve been dismissing things that bother me in my relationship and realizing that no matter how many times i try and make my needs known, i’m the only one who’s genuinely owning up to my flaws and trying to work on them so that i can grow as a person and help better our relationship is so heartbreaking and emotionally draining.
despite the fact that i’m looking to get my masters and become a psychotherapist, i never fully understood the saying in therapy that’s like “it’s going to feel worse before it feels better” until now and i am hoping that this somehow works itself out soon because it’s so exhausting right now.
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come back on here after a month to discover wattpad removed direct message…that’s so dumb like for what tho???
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I don't if you saw the announcement, but after the 6th Wattpad will no longer allow private messages and will delete the old ones. I'm generally disappointed by this as I thought it was an important feature. Also disappointed because I fear it will result in people losing touch. If you want to send me direst messages, I am on Instagram and Discord as 1775rik. Also am on Twitter as handleyboy@1775rik. I realize you may not want to use any of these as it could effect your anonymity. And that would be perfectly understandable. And I guess the public message feature will still be available here, but that would lilkely be even less satisfactory. But if we do fall out of touch, know that you have my best wishes and confidence.
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@sunny_tumblr Glad to hear that. I know you'll make it. It was kind of you to think of it. Hard to understand why something that works well has to be changed. One thing to try and improve something. Another to just do away with it.
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@1775rik things are going well! just trying to get through my last co-op term lol. i actually came back on here cause i realized i never answered your last message and that’s how i found out they removed it.
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@sunny_tumblr Thanks! I saw that and wondered who it was. Glad its you. The name maybe should have given me a clue. Like the growing sideways line. It did seem quite dumb for them to remove the message feature. Hope things are wll with you.
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i went to see noah kahan in concert a few days ago and it was the first concert i’ve ever been to for my own love of the artist because i resonate so completely with his music and i wanted to share my experience…
it was so surreal and i felt the exact moment where every single version of me who had any desire to not be on this earth anymore finally felt understood, heard, loved, and like they weren’t alone. i genuinely mean it when i say that i internally thanked myself for not going through with any of those thoughts because it led me to that moment at the concert where i was overcome with so much happiness and peace and it was just such an amazing feeling.
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i submitted a request form to a psychologist clinic for an autism assessment… we shall see if i was either right that there was something more going on or if i’m just delusional
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just a gentle reminder that you can do hard things ❤️
and even if you feel like your glass is only 1/4 full, but you’re trying your best to get by everyday, you’re not giving only 25% of your energy, you’re giving 100% because that 1/4 is currently all you have and that’s okay ❤️
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so i started my new co-op and i’ve already had to fight back 2 anxiety attacks both about an hour each. the first of which resulted in me crying my entire 45 minute drive home once i finished.
i can’t have this summer be like last summer and have me crying every single day from how stressed i am.
my only issue is if i quit, which i really want to do to, i’m removed from the co-op portion of my program because technically ur not allowed to quit your co-op once you start it. but i genuinely don’t think i can do this for 3 months 30 hrs a week