Hey guys, it's been 2 years of my hiatus so I've thought about it and decided to quit. I started this page at like age 13 and I was cringe, uneducated on most topics and had flawed logic in a lot of ways. I've grown a lot as a person and also in my writing. It's reflected throughout the years of my writing that I have evolved and it was amazing to be able to look back on it now and remember how much I used to enjoy reading and writing. I know I'll probably get hate for this but I'm saying what I believe. I just don't believe that sexual ffs are right. It completely sexualizes and invades the privacy of idols. None of them ever gave any kind of consent for sexual ffs and for that I apologize for my part in partaking in writing those things, therefore promoting that behavior. I will be taking down my ffs. I won't delete them, just unpublish them. My reason for not deleting them is that I want to be able to see my growth as a writer, not for the content itself. I constantly made excuses for my behavior but not anymore. I also want to apologize to my readers that are poc. I usually didn't think to add poc (y/n's) when describing them. I was only thinking of eurocentric beauty standards and was struggling with my own body image and it reflected in my work. That is NOT an excuse and I am sorry. One more thing. I have pushed boundaries on characters (mostly y/n's) consent and I want to say I wasn't thinking of it in that way at the time because I was extremely young and not educated on the matter of how consent and boundaries work. I'm sure there's more in my writing to apologize for but this is all I can think of right now. I apologize for being so insensitive and thank you for reading and supporting me throughout the years but this is goodbye.