Damn I think I need to live in the Theraprism. My family is questioning my borderline diagnosis, and now I'm questioning it too because I have no individuality. My mom's reasoning is that she thinks I have more control over my actions and just choose not to because I want people to do stuff for me (continuing the narrative that I manipulate people into getting what I want.) My sibling thinks that I don't bring up stuff in therapy because I shut down and don't want to talk about anything. I don't have time in therapy because dbt therapy way more structured than any psychotherapy or emdr (which is trauma therapy.) If I did have time, I would talk the therapist's ears off. And I know I sound like I'm looking for pity, and I'm sorry about that. I just have a victim complex and it feels good to finally get stuff of my chest, since the people in my life don't want to hear it over their delusions. Again, an option like the Theraprism seems great. It even seems like they do group psychotherapy, arts and crafts, and individual therapy. Honestly, I don't believe I'm ever gonna get out of this hellhole and they're gonna keep me alive for their selfish morals. Please kill me.