sunsetgamer1218
I was watching an ER skit and had to look up stuff... Now I am cursed with the knowledge of what a Philadelphia sidecar is
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Damn I think I need to live in the Theraprism. My family is questioning my borderline diagnosis, and now I'm questioning it too because I have no individuality. My mom's reasoning is that she thinks I have more control over my actions and just choose not to because I want people to do stuff for me (continuing the narrative that I manipulate people into getting what I want.) My sibling thinks that I don't bring up stuff in therapy because I shut down and don't want to talk about anything. I don't have time in therapy because dbt therapy way more structured than any psychotherapy or emdr (which is trauma therapy.) If I did have time, I would talk the therapist's ears off. And I know I sound like I'm looking for pity, and I'm sorry about that. I just have a victim complex and it feels good to finally get stuff of my chest, since the people in my life don't want to hear it over their delusions. Again, an option like the Theraprism seems great. It even seems like they do group psychotherapy, arts and crafts, and individual therapy. Honestly, I don't believe I'm ever gonna get out of this hellhole and they're gonna keep me alive for their selfish morals. Please kill me.
Creator_Outside
@sunsetgamer1218 oh dear why was there a roach? I hope you are treated with care there
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@Creator_Outside thank you. The last time this happened I got really stressed out frustrated I got h o m I c I d a l (don't want to get reported) ideation and landed in the hospital for months because my foster family didn't want me back and now I live in a residential care facility with old disabled people
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TBOB MADE ME SHIP BILLFORD HELP TOXIC OLD MAN YAOI
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I need help to try to find a billdip fic. It was discontinued, it took place in Weirdmaggedon, Dipper sliced a tattoo of Bill's zodiac, and there is a chapter that is called something like "not your average hang over." Please help me find this.
sunsetgamer1218
@Creator_Outside I don't remember the author, but I believe the cover art was a human bill sitting on a throne of humans with his leg crossed
Creator_Outside
@sunsetgamer1218 alrighty do you remember any other details like author name or cover art?
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I was going to write a GF fic and I had a gag headcanon because it was a crackfic, but I just got done reading The Book of Bill and that gag headcanon is partially canon. Oop.
Creator_Outside
@sunsetgamer1218 dude I had so many head cannons and ideas that were either literally canon or partially canon and it had me going nuts
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I just spent 3 months in the hospital (skull emoji)
sunsetgamer1218
We don't know what Bill Cipher actually sounds like, looks like, and if that is actually his name
sunsetgamer1218
Sorry for the random post, I had a thought while listening to Ballin Bill Cipher cover
sunsetgamer1218
I'm not fighting with depression anymore, I'm fighting three other demons:
•Borderline Personality Disorder
•Both CPTSD and PTSD
•People who refuse to take accountability for their actions and meet me in the middle
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I give you all until now because my siblings also hate me